I don’t know..

It just feels like too much has happened. Too many things gone wrong, and here I am left with the fallout of all of it. For a time I’d wake up with enthusiasm to fight it, figure I’d do this or that and things will get better, try to improve the situation, but where it’s led me is just so utterly depressing. Details don’t really matter, I feel it’s more once you get stuck in this frame of mind you just feel stuck. I don’t know. Just found out a good friend of mine from back in the day killed herself. She was so beautiful, troubled for sure, but seemed to have gotten a handle on things. My father killed himself, my cousin killed himself. One of my fish jumped out of the tank, apparently it was all too much for him too. REst in Peace “Bagels”.