Despite how beautiful, motivational and heroic this song is i feel like absolute shit. I want to die so so very bad. Why is non existence not an option. I rather have never known existing. Not been born. Not had to live as the ugly unhappy friendless kid turned ugly unhappy friendliness man. When i work out in attempts to burn the millions of pounds of fat on my body i hope I have a fatal heart attack and drop dead. That it will all be over. All the anger depression and nothingness. The loneliness the hatred the lack of belonging. The tears the longing to be understood and cared about. Im just tired.