Is there a good suicide?

When I think about it from time to time, when Im not in complete shit, I can argue there can be a good suicide.

Of course, natural for people is to try to live to an endless extend, but we still die eventually. To imagine suicide or some kind of violent death, we feel strong negative emotions naturaly, but I think its not mandatory.

The key is understanding. With true understanding, when your view of life is how you actually live(d) it, there comes some kind of calmness. We all are just figures in this super complex world of birth and death and even with modern science, we still dont know shit about it. When u really see life as scenes of causes and consequences, you can see it in more neutral fashion. And u can see from many points that death is not a problem, only our fear of it is, because we all lived and died and its true for this life also. So when you find yourself in some kind of situation in life when you don’t want to continue it for any reason, why it should be such a problem to end your life. Yes, it is a problem, but it doesn’t have to be that hard or painful or nonsensical.

Anyone can get into a situation in this life, be it mostly some physical or mental illness, when u cannot continue to live without huge suffering of some kind. And what is this suffering? Its your heart crying for live, but not finding it. We all want to live a good life, but we suffer when we are not able to. Yes, there is always some chance to get better or fight and its not in conflict with thinking about death. Why would we fear death or suicide? Just because we are programmed to by nature or society? Then you are back to suffering. Life and death are neutral – when you are doing good, you see it as good, when you are doing bad, you see it as bad, but its not a big deal. You can die with an understanding what happened and that life was good sometimes and bad sometimes for some reason, thats how it is. When you were born, you didn’t have the problem why you weren’t alive before, life is just this endless cycle of birth and death and there is no reason to feel it as unbearable suffering.

I don’t know if I got my thought into this lol. Im not planning suicide now but I might.