Everybody seems to make such a great deals of relationships and it look to be one of the only thing that makes life worth living. So why can’t I feel this emotion? I tried to trick myself I could fall for somebody, but the truth is I can’t. I am way more happy to live with my parents, even if my father’s girlfriend can’t endure me anymore and want my father to kicks me out. She thinks I am old enough and I should go make my own life with a partner. But where would I go? In an appartement alone? What a misery. And I would feel so anxious living with people I don’t know and don’t trust.
Feel people always judge me for not being in a relationship.
The only romantic thing in my life is the idea of my suicide at 25 years old. I like the idea of dying at such a young age. Feel like life is not worth it after this age.
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i myself couldn’t wait to get out, yeah you have to be careful of who you live with, i feel for your parents though, they are waiting for you to fly the nest and you are hanging on for dear life!!!
I moved out at 22. Moved back at 23. And didnt leave till 27. Now im a fully functioning adult at 40… well not quite fully functioning. But u know…. give it a chance. U might meet the person of ur dreams around the next corner.
It could be because you’re anxious around new people, or because you haven’t met the right person yet, or because you’re thinking about it or expecting it too much (I’ve heard it said that you’re most likely to fall in love when you don’t expect to meet anyone, and that person will be a “beautiful surprise”) or because you’re just not that type of person. Everyone is made differently. Not everyone falls in love when they’re young, and not everyone does at all. People judging you is the only thing wrong with being different. There must be lots of other people who haven’t fallen in love out there too and it could easily still happen. Life isn’t all about that kind of relationship. There are all kinds of love out there. Maybe you could live with a friend or pet someday, or maybe you’ll be happy and comfortable in a relationship without feeling in love. Or maybe it’ll happen when you least expect it and you’ll decide you want to move out after all. I can understand it being hard to trust someone at first but you could end up making new friends/relationships that way if they do make you move out.
I don’t think there’s any age where life becomes not worth it. People find happiness at all ages. I’m sorry you haven’t found a meaning to your life yet. Maybe you’re looking in the wrong places, or maybe you have a problem like depression that’s stopping you from feeling like life is worth living. I hope someday it will be.
Thank you Trix, I never thought someone would post a so complete answer!
Sometimes I also feel loneliness because of not falling in love but I never thought to end my life.