Ok, this is my last post for this time, I promise. Even as I’m super sick of psychiatrists, psychologists and healers etc. – one did really good job in helping me to understand deeper what happened in my life and why I’m just lying in my bed most of the time.
Its really refreshing after years of just drowning in this “medical system” to hear something fresh and inovative. The woman didn’t look much interesting from the outside, more likely some average esoteric bullshit, but she was able to read me like an open book. Not even she spoke about things that actually mattered for me, but she gave me bigger perspective of my problems. Even bigger than I was able and I’m big and open minded thinker.
I don’t know how to find this kind of people, I guess it was just a luck, but its promising to see that even in such bad spot in your life, someone can help u to understand more.
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Yes… It is rare to stumble across such a person (in my experience). People who act as mirrors for your blind spots. They help you see more; the big picture.
Whenever I come across such a person it is only for a small window of time. They show me something wild/open my mind and then they are gone. This could also be because I don’t do so well with human connections for long , but it seems more like they show up at specific times. When I am walking around blinded by my own shit. Standing in my own way.
Yeah. When I think about my life, even before I got depressed, there were those super intense moments when I felt the connection that I acomplished something followed by it going away for good. Just the pauses got bigger, accomplishments weaker, people rarer etc.
I was in psychiatric hospital 2 times and they didn’t tell me shit that would matter. But it somehow comes when I’m like total colapsing to help me for some time. Sadly it never worked to get me on for good.
yeah, i had a great connection with my psychologist on a professional and on a personal level, until one meeting a year ago when she told me she quits and goes about to travel the world. i tried to be happy for her but it has broken me even more. i know how frustrating it is to find a good psychologist. i didn’t want to start looking again but my mom insisted i’d meet her head of group she went to for parents dealing with a mentally ill child. so i went. and we continued meeting since. i can honestly say she is way more professional than my last psychologist and there’s a good connection there.
I actually never wanted to go to a psychologist. I think I always had a decent viewpoint on my life and life in general, much better than most people. When I discovered that I have a depression I took it more on medical side. Later when it was not going so well I met some psychologist, young women, and it was always the same. It just my personality, I have to cope with it, Im actually ok, just keep taking pills and do some minor things. Never meant a shit. This one said she totally understands that I’m lying in bed and feel super sick. That I have a great potential, but made some mistakes which made me sick and drained my energy.