It’s been a while since I’ve been active here, and I mainly only come to post thoughts that I can just get down and easily forget.
I’ve been off my medications for about 3 months since trying to have a baby with my husband. It has been so hard though what with making the decision to quit the job I’ve been at for the past five years, starting a job I utterly despise, making the decision to quit the new job entirely (after having multiple anxiety attacks stemmed from it; I do have a backup plan though), and having our roommate situation wear and tear me down.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed 2 years ago. Every now and again I have small moments of clarity where time seems to not be an issue, like right now. In this moment of time, I am able to sit and think clearly of what my next move will be, ways to be productive and address any household issues with my roommates, and ultimately remain calm. How long this feeling will last is a mystery to me. I just hope I’m able to make productive decisions while I’m considered lucid.
I can pray things work out, but that’s really all I can do for now.
2 comments
do you think that things have gotten worse since you have been off the medications??
if they have you might want to get back on them…. if your feeling overwhelmed.
sometimes meds can be very helpful.
Shame but she wants a baby…