Dealing with the aftermath of my mother’s suicide has been very difficult and stressful.
My mom and dad had been married for 27 years back in March and they hardly EVER spent a night away from each other. If she had a business trip he’d be right beside her. If he had a business trip she’d likewise be right there with him. I know that none of us know how to cope with this the “correct” way…..due to I’m sure THERE IS NO CORRECT WAY TO HANDLE A SITUATION LIKE THIS. I feel helpless in not knowing how to help my dad heal. It hasn’t been easy for me, but I’ve also had my husband right there beside me literally every step of the way through this whole thing. That support system for dad was the person who is no longer with us. He doesn’t have that best friend to stay up and vent to anymore or that person who can take his mind off stressful things and fill it with joy instead. I feel guilty that I have that comfort during this and he does not.
I know one of the best things I can do right now is try and be there for him as much as possible but it gets difficult due to the fact that he lives an hour and a half away from where I live. The town I live in is where he has lived his whole life. My parents moved that far away when they retired and I don’t really see him moving back anytime soon… I know it’d make my family feel more at ease if he’d come back but he needs to stay where he feels the most at home. I’m struggling with how to deal with everything and on what I can do to help him get to a better place. I just feel so helpless right now. I can’t take that pain away from him as much as I wish I could.