Just wanna die peacefully.
Today is somehow a good day to die and it’s kinda wrost day also.
So I Shouldn’t die.
And I won’t.
But I am unable comprehend one thing.
I know this for sure… like god damn 100 % sure that nothing is gonna change in my life.
I think I lost the love of my life.
People are harassing me at work and I can’t do anything about it which is the most current reason that makes me to kill myself.
Well it’s not only the reason…..
It’s just a trigger….. or what should I say….
Well…. I am verge on killing myself.. but somehow I am kept myself alive so far. But this is something like last stone/ drop/ or something which makes me just wanna do it right now.
But again. … herr is another problem.
I been like this for a very long time… for past five years I constantly think about killing myself. And I also attempted few time.
But this time there is a problem…… or may be understanding.
I don’t know.
Sorry I am not making any sense.
Welll….. just .. it’s just that one day when I was sane…. I made a promise to myself that no matter how I feel. I will not kill myself… and I forgot. ….
Shit…..
It’s simple…..
I can’t die because of her…. she would feel that she is responsible for my death. But that’s completely untrue.
She is not.
She is the only reason I am alive today.
My head hurts like Hell 🙂
What should I right now.
Nothing.