Been a while…

I recently have been trying to better myself, Trying to see a therapist and such things. That hasn’t been working well. I’m starting to think its gotten worse. I cant focus on important things. I keep myself up at night thinking about how life would be much more better if I weren’t there. I see virtually how life would be without me in the way, I also see how better it would be. I’m pretty sure now I have “Major depression” and existential anxiety. I falling apart day by day but still managing to keep a smile on my face.