So this is day 2 without heroin. Im coming off the back of a month long bender, using every day. I knew it was getting me down when i started watching videos of people checking out and thinking it looked peaceful & altogether not a bad idea.
So i spoke to my dr and started to increase my methadone dose to something so high it will block all opiates. Its the only thing that will stop me i think. So im on day 2, my mood has stabilized and im not thinking bout diving off something really tall.
I think this will always be a struggle for me, and like ive heard before… a life time of patterns are hard to change. So to end on the biggest cliché ever… im taking it one day at a time. Well today seems like a minute at a time.
The sunrise has helped. Take care sp. Thanks for been there. X
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The journey of a thousand miles starts with 1 step.
You should definitely check out some AA or NA meetings, I promise they help A LOT (or they did for me), it really wouldn’t hurt to try. You might hear some interesting things and be surrounded with people in the same boat as you, when I go I don’t feel so misunderstood and it’s pretty awesome!!!!