I don’t want to commit suicide but I want to die. I’ve thought of walking around in dangerous neighborhoods, trying to find someone to kill me. I don’t care if it’s painful or not, I just don’t want to be alive anymore. I pray every night to give my life for someone else who wants to live. I don’t. I just want to die.
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I walk around dangerous places too, but I had no luck so far 🙁
How is it that people who don’t want to die do, and people who want to die don’t?
I was walking in the woods yesterday. I was hoping a bear would spot me and kill me. No such luck.
Going to bed and praying not to wake up.
Passive suicide, in a sense. Not actively planning to end one’s life but perhaps setting oneself up to be in the ‘right’ place at the ‘right’ time for life’s termination to happen.
Ah it also happens to me. All my acquaintances got mugged or something but I don’t, even if I walk in the most dangerous streets. I know that feeling.
Why are you looking for this kind of suicide if you don’t care about pain? If you’re scared don’t feel bad, it’s normal and every person who backs up feel the fear. Anyway, I wish you the best.
I saw some guy in his twenties on TV before, he has anxiety and stress his cancer will return. I have stress that I don’t have a fatal illness. God just kill me, heart attack, accident, anything.
God is not going to kill you. When you beg for death it never happens. I used to be the way, begging for God to kill me but now realize that 1. He does not exist or 2. He refuses to help me cause he enjoys watching me suffer. But I now I’m fresh out of options and pretty much end my life myself. Sometimes god works to slow. You just have to take matters in your own hands 🙂
It’s just rhetorical. I know god won’t kill me. Although I think I’m closer to a natural death than I realise.