Every day I wake up in the morning thinking, “fuck, I didn’t die.” I take a shower, get dressed and go to work. Everyone thinks I’m normal. I come home at the end of the day, and think about dying. I try to decide if I should take all the medications I have and then worry it won’t be enough. If I decide to kill myself I don’t want to fail. I’m not trying to get attention, I want to die! I’m on anti-depressants and increased the dose last week. See the doctor tomorrow. Not sure what to tell her. What I want to say […]
Seems everyone on here is young. I’m old and feel like I’ve lived my life and I don’t want to live anymore. I’m tired and have no future. I don’t think I’d be missed. Problem is I don’t want the stigma of suicide. I used to think I’d get in my car and plow head on into a semi at the last minute. Then I realized what it would do to the driver. I don’t want to hurt anyone else, physically or emotionally, I just want to die. Anyone have any ideas? Thought of driving my car into a bridge abutment. I just have to […]
I don’t want to commit suicide but I want to die. I’ve thought of walking around in dangerous neighborhoods, trying to find someone to kill me. I don’t care if it’s painful or not, I just don’t want to be alive anymore. I pray every night to give my life for someone else who wants to live. I don’t. I just want to die.