Maybe life wasn’t meant for me. I can’t do the things I would really want to do. I can’t seem to control my life. I can’t live up to the ideals that I have in my mind. I wish things were easier, but they aren’t. Reality is cruel, which is why I try to find some form of escape. I don’t see the point in life. Eventually, my life will not mean anything. I will not have an impact on the future. 100 years from now, people may not even know my name. What is the point in anything if I’ll just be forgotten. What’s the point if my existence will not leave a mark. I don’t understand how people can go about their daily lives without questioning their existence, their purpose, their reality. Maybe it’s because they have the answers. Maybe they have already found their purpose. Maybe they’re the ones who were meant to survive. Maybe they will be remembered and I will be forgotten. Am I destined to be broken? Am I overthinking? I wish something would happen to snap me out of this. I can’t get rid of this feeling. I don’t know if I can continue dealing with everything. I just want to take a break from life.
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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There’s nothing wrong with having high ideals. Sometimes it’s a matter of breaking down those ideals in significantly smaller sub-goals. It’s a lot easier to assess and adjust… and train for… a much smaller piece of the puzzle. As you accomplish multiple puzzle pieces, the larger ideal can begin to take shape. Breaking it down might not overwhelm you as much.
Leaving a mark on others doesnt have to involve complex ideals. Your day-to-day accomplishments and interactions can leave a mark. Hopefully, your drive and determination… and net results… can have a positive effect on others.
It’s not required, however, for everyone on the planet to permanently impact someone else. You can do a heck of a lot within your own space and lead a highly productive life.
Perhaps you are overthinking a bit. I do that, too. You can get forever caught up in your thinking that it details you from doing what you want to do… and it can take the fun out of it, too.
By the way, welcome to SP.
Thank you