Hello everybody, it’s been awhile but I’m back. I was gonna go on a tyrate and vent but after reading some post and thinking about things ( for once ) I’ve come to the realization that i I’m just getting used to things. I honestly thought things had turned around for me and made the mistake of letting my guard down and everything just kinda fell apart again. I was gonna go out do some partying but decided not to. Then was gonna come here and vent because i have some really good people here that can usually talk me in from ledge. Then i made the decision that I’m not letting life win this time, I’m gonna win this time. I deserve to give myself at least that much, just like every one of you deserve to give yourselves that much. I’ve been working on liking myself which is something that I’ve never been able to do. I’m not giving up anymore, of course all of that is subject to change but for now i feel hopeful and thankful for my friends here on SP. i wish we all could feel this way all the time because i think it’s finally time for some happiness. And i do sincerely hope that everybody finds their own happiness, whatever that may be. I really am sorry for just rambling lol but i just wanted to share a positive post for a change. Thanks guys for letting me share my thoughts.
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i found lots of value in this statement. No need to apologize for rambling, its all in good favor. Be relieved that you found peace with yourself and learning how to coexist with everything around you. No selfish feelings should ever come from your thoughts. You deserve every right to be overjoyed. One part of our jobs in this community is to support. It takes courage to do something like this, and you are a beautiful example of the goals persisting in this website. I believe you can keep your peace, and if not – we can help with that. But most of all, don’t be afraid.
Thank you for your reply. I have to say that I’m not afraid, i would say fed up more than anything. I’ve dealt with my illness all my life, been medicated, in therapy, locked up etc etc etc…… I’m learning to just ” keep it movin ” lol. But believe it or not finding this site and meeting some really incredible people has helped me to this point. I’m usually pretty angry but have been able to channel that anger elsewhere, and if i can do it anybody can. That’s why i continue to stay on this site, i want to give something back if i can. Because of the positives that i have gotten from the people on this site like yourself. It’s the kind words of strangers. I mean think about it, we don’t owe anybody here anything, but yet here we are. That my friend is power, beauty, in its purest form.