Hello sp

I think I wanna end it soon, its funny wen eva I see post like this I say to myself , why say it but dont commit to it. Im not the type to say something and not mean it. Ive done alot of thinkin on how to get past this.I know that I cant. I know ill always live with this so I think its best that I show myself mercy. I cant stand another day of ” ok I can fight this,” I just want that moment when I take my last breathe.I think now wat will be harder that last moment or more day waking up…