Hopefully hopeful this is my last week

In a few days I’ll get paid and have gun money. Ive chickened out before so no guarantees but the plan is to get a gun on my way home from work. Wait until later that night go to the bridge and shoot myself in a way that i fall off of it after. It’ll all be over all this bs that life. It finally ends. All the anger regret and failure ends. My biggest regret is not killing myself sooner. All i would have missed out on is pain.