Honesty is the best policy. That’s what you’ve been told since you were young. Honesty will lead you through anything. But these are all lies. Because what we live in is not a kind world. It is a cruel and taunting one.
When depression is brought up, what’s the first thing people say to do? Talk to someone. But how? How do you bring on such a harsh topic, when you know that the result will be just as harsh?
How do I tell you? You who will one up me. You who will not understand. You who is supposed to be my best friend yet I do not trust completely. This is honestly like a game. When I say this you say that. When I say I feel depressed, so do you. When I say I want to hurt myself, you say you already have, but have no scars. When I say my parents are fighting, you say your parents are getting divorced. When I say I want to see a therapist, you say your mom is taking you to one. When I say I feel like eating less, you say had anorexia for a little bit. I guess this is what they mean when somebody always has it worse than you. Except that somebody is you, who should be supportive. Are you telling me the truth? Should I trust you? Are you purposefully doing this to me? Are you telling your other friends of my miseries?
How am I supposed to tell you? You who haunt me in and out of school. How do I tell you? You who has many friends and family to go to. How do I tell you? You who is my personal demon. One that is real. One that is human….One that has found me. How?
2 comments
I agree with you.
This world is wretched. But there few good people in this world also and it is very hard to share your emotions but there must be someone with whom you can share, talk it out. If not then SP is here.
Hugs.
that is NOT A FRIEND..i have had plenty of those people in my life..they are always trying to 1 up you and make their life seem a tad it worse or better than yours. i think you should be honest with yourself and leave the friendship or at least distance yourself..you need a good friend to vent too! please contact me if you need to vent or curse or whatever! i am always willing to listen!