A breakup with someone you love is always hard. There are a million questions with a million answers. Each question begets countless different answers. But it can’t evade the underlying problem: the need to break it off. I’ve had quite a few relationships up until now. Some that lasted a few days, a few weeks, a few months, a few years. At the time, the longer ones were excruciatingly painful to let go of. But these days, I find myself looking back on them with apathy. They don’t captivate me the same way, no longer addicting or a source of pain. They’re just part of my past, and I have no interest in visiting them or going back. If I happen to encounter them, I wouldn’t have to feign happiness or feign apathy. I am, despite lack of long-term employment, already happy and already apathetic of my past loves of my life. It’s weird. I can’t get over how weird it is. Just last October, I was madly crazy over a breakup with my boyfriend of almost a year. That’s one of the reason’s I had joined this forum. This forum has helped me to vent my emotions and whenever I feel a need to spill my thoughts, I always find myself coming back here. There is no judgement… no shame… But back to the strangeness of falling out of love, of moving on, of being okay again… How was it possible that I’m so okay now, but just 10 months ago, I was on the verge of death? It’s amazing, the way we survive and begin again. The possibilities, the hopes… it’s so large.
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I agree, break ups can be hard. they can. Whenever we have a person in out life > we grow attached to them in some way. When we break-up it can hurt for a little while because its a CHANGE.
But sometimes its necessary to break-up, sometimes its necessary to change. Change is a part of life, change is something we need to learn to deal with.
It sounds to me that you are doing a pretty good job of knowing when a relationship you were once in is no longer good for you. That is a good quality to have.
Now when you say you have put all the past relationships behind you. I think that also is a good quality that you have. Because once a relationship is over > it best to just put it in the past (as you have said) and move forward in life.
YES, I also agree that this forum is a good place to come and vent. People are very openminded here and very supportive. You have a great attitude.
You say How is it possible that you are OK? Well I am not an expert on that subjecct > but I have to say that from my perspective > in General human beings have a natural ability to overcome and get better. Our bodies can recover from injuries, and we can also recover from emotional wounds and psychological wounds as well.
SO I would like to say. I am GLAD that you have recovered and that you are feeling better and I would like for you to remain optimistic about your present moment and remain optimistic for the future. The past is gone… take from it what you need and leave the rest behind and go out and live your life to its fullest. The best days of your life could be ahead of you!!
Enjoy it. You are entitled to move toward better times.
Enjoy. Stay Positive. Go forward
thanks for posting.