I think I’m still alive because my subconscious still wants to experience certain things I haven’t tried yet. I’m still a virgin (24 Y/O), haven’t graduated from university, and haven’t lived on my own.
I really really want to die though… I’m sure you know the feeling. But for now these things compel me not to find a way to end my own life. With no one to share a life with, or a life to live for, there no reason to live at all. So once those things are experienced at least once, there won’t be anything holding me back anymore… But we’ll see I guess.
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Seems to me, much like you, because I seem simply, currently, lack the constitution for suicide. Mother nature can be a cruel *****.
I really don’t know anymore. I guess I am holding on for something
I form this mental image of me getting my wish and leaving this torment behind then i’m allowed one last glimpse back at what i’ve forever left behind. I see my wife and two sons devastated with grief and can clearly see what they’re feeling and then i’m overwhelmed with the urge to go comfort them but I can’t because my decision was so final.
Thats what stops me. But I don’t want to be here anymore.
I’m alive because I’ve failed at suicide attempts and am just now working up the nerve to attempt again
I am alive > for one… I have had some failed suicide attempts. So that is the main reason. If I had done the job correctly in the past I would be dead now and at peace. Second reason is that after my failed suicide attempts… I have decided that its pretty cool to live as long as I can. So I am alive.. and trying to make the best of my life and trying to accomplish things like my Bucket list and so forth. And well so far its going pretty good. So currently things are good for me so I am just chugging along with my life… but suicide is often in the back of my mind as a way out if and when things get really bad. 3) I am also alive because when I last tried to end my life > my family was very very hurt buy the whole thing so I am trying to live this life out so they don’t have to go through the grief of me dieing that way.
the reason you want to die is because your a virgin!!! do the nasty sometimes and then you will have another reason to live!!! 🙂