Another cursed day of inhaling and exhaling. I’m thinking of ending it all this week as i cant put up with living but i hope that evey fucking week. Why couldn’t i have been aborted? What does it feel like it not exist anymore or at all living is valueless. I’ve been so thoroughly meaningless hopeless and pointless for so long i just quit life. I want to kill myself now. Right now this instant. I wish i could be murdered bow or have a fatal heart attack. I dont want to be able to finish typing this sentence. I want to die. Im tired of this bitter anger. Im tired beyond comprehension.
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Parts of our life can be valueless, we all have times where we are merely just existing. Dwelling on this fact can be unproductive, if we do use our time and energy on something I think that the effort put in should be worthwhile. Can you spend the time that is consumed with dark thoughts to instead remember parts of your life which were better and think of ways to bring some of that back or create new and better memories.
There is no part of my life that was better besides me not being born in the first place. My entire life is valueless
I’m sorry that you feel that way.
Are there things that you enjoy or have some interest in that you could pursue further to give value to your life?
It’s odd but one of my now favourite hobbies grew from something that at one point I had little interest in. Sometimes you don’t know what will stick until you try it.
Nothing truly worth living for no. I appreciate your help i have hpbbies and intrests that i never persue properly because they become overwhelming.