I haven’t posted on here in a while, because I guess I’ve been pretty stable. I can consistently get up, go to work, and find ways to distract myself. A few times a week I can do things I enjoy. But I’ve pretty much given up on ever loving anyone, or trusting anyone, or hoping for anything, or setting any significant goals. It’s just not worth getting crushed again, because I know I’ve never been able to control my feelings. I’d rather be bitter and miserable than vulnerable.
So I guess I’ll just keep fighting the world. And if I lose, which I probably will, that’s OK, since I’ve never liked myself at all anyway.
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My friend, nothing is more difficult than swimming against the current in this life, but you should feel proud that you have that strength, and most do not. If you keep swimming, you will find happiness, but it will not be what you expect it to be. Do some soul searching, research near death experiences, explore your mind and gain wisdom, it is the only thing worth while. God Bless.
Exactly.