Hey guys, it’s me. And yeah I’m still alive. I can’t even kill myself, what a total failure.
I didn’t make it on time, I arrived on August 16th, at 12:10 am. The gate was already closed. Those 10 minutes literally saved my life. And if I did it right there it wouldn’t make a difference, it would be like killing myself another random date.
But as I watched the midnight landscape and looked over the bridge I realised: Maan, dying is scary!! I was in total dissociation when I arrived there, and I kept visualizing the fall over and over again, wondering what would I feel.
Anyway, I’ll be able to participate in the contest!! It is next week! My friends and I are so nervous but at the same time so excited! My reason to live isn’t over yet, so I’ll be able to see it until the (semi) end. I’m happy.
New date: probably when my reason to live (semi) ends. (The real end would be in ten years and HAHA! no, thanks)
Take care and thank you for commenting on my previous post. Thank you guys, you made me feel… worth of something good.
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Holy fuck my prayers were answered after all. I’m so relieved that you’re still alive, kamidaka.
Thank you! You’re always so kind to me, you really are a good person. I hope you’re doing well 🙂
Aww, that’s very sweet of you to say. I just generally like you as a person. You remind me of a friend. I’m really rooting for you.
Good to see you are still here. Gannbatte at that contest next week.
Hey! It’s good to see you too, and I’ll do my best 😀
I’m so happy it didn’t work out: 🙂
Good luck with your contest. Your excitement/relative good cheer is a little contagious!
Hey! Thank you! Well I hope I lifted your spirit even if a little 😀 take care!