Any one else here just extremely nihilistic? I wonder which came first. Did my nihilism make me depressed, or did my depression make me nihilistic. Of course when you have both they just feed off each other and make everything worse. The more depressed you are, the more meaningless and empty the world seems. The more you think about how meaningless everything is the more depressed you get.
How do you get out of that though. Especially when you are convinced it is the absolute true, and anyone that believes differently is simply self deluded. I mean I could stand in front of the mirror and tell myself all day that this has meaning, or that is important. I don’t believe it though so I just feel like I am lying to myself or trying to trick myself. Which is just frustrating and annoying. Its like standing there telling myself over and over 2+2=7 no matter how many times I repeat it I will still “know” its wrong. It just seems like that such a basic unquestionable truth that there is no meaning or purpose and nothing matters.