i can’t believe it, I don’t think I can make it to the end of the year after all. I tried keeping calm but I snapped and now I’m the bad guy. After every day they yell and scream and butcher each other and I stay in the corner and keep quiet. It’s not my place, it’s not my family but I just snapped they were yelling about doing things that my mother used to do and how they wished they could do them to each other and they threatened each other with those acts of….. I know it was said in the heat of the moment and all I wanted to do was go to bed I can’t I can’t they came in and yelled at me cause I just wanted to walk away I can’t I’m sorry
the screams in my head
the disbelieving voices of my peers when I call for help
im sorry
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There’s no need to say sorry for what you did. We all snap sometimes, and in your case it was completely reasonable.
I’m sorry about your peers not believing your calls for help. I’ve said it before, but many people underestimate mental issues, and think it’s something you can just walk off. The best course of action would be to go see a professional. Therapist, counselor, psychiatrist, any mental health professional will do the trick. Look around and find one that you’d think you’d be comfortable with.
Sadly I have tried, to be honest I don’t know where your from but in Australia the mental health system is terrible to get an affordable therapist you need a referral then you go on an 8 week waiting list for a private one it’s like $400 for a visit. I’m 18 now and I have a commission job I can’t afford that. So the only really hope is my “friends” but they don’t believe or just don’t care anymore now that I’ve left school. Like always I am the trophy that everyone shows off to their friends but the moment I rust or break they throw me away just like my family.
I’m sorry to hear that. I can assure you that where I’m from the mental health system is equally, or even worse, fucked. Well, if that happened, and they truly don’t care, then they were never your friends to begin with. However, it’s important to remember that we can’t passively sit and wait for support from others, even friends or family. A person needs to reach out for support, otherwise, more often than not, you’ll never receive it. So, if your friends ignored you, even if you reached out, I suggest getting new friends. Take your time, and find people that you connect with, people that would help you and actually truly care about you.