It’s been awhile since I wrote here. I’m so terribly ashamed that I don’t know who to go to. After almost 4 months of been clean, I just had to go do it. I realise that these things don’t disappear. It waits for a single moment of weakness and starts to fester again until it’s strong enough to tear you down.
the suicidal thoughts are back, although the it’s not as prominent as before. I don’t even know when they snuck up. I was so content, perhaps I was too complacent. And now all I can think of is to escape.
I wonder why people choose to hurt others. If I did anything wrong I’m sorry, but I don’t think that I have done anything to warrant your ignorance. If I’m something so easily replaceable, then so be it.
I’ve learnt my lesson. Never ever trust anyone, especially not people who claim to be your friend and yet have the gall to toss you aside when they get bored.
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What did you relapse on? I am currently trying to stay clean as well, what kinda measures have you been taking to maintain being clean?
Please listen carefully.
If you are saying you slipped back into active addiction, consider using IbogaineHCL to cure you.
Ibogaine interrupts addiction in one session with no withdrawal symptoms.
I used it myself.
Interrupts opiate addiction I believe, but really regardless of the addiction, there are far too many other underlying issues that surround addiction to really rely on a cure all. That being said ibogaine is pretty cool, from what I can remember it has an opiate antagonist that sits on the receptors for quite some time.
You are understating it’s effectiveness.
I went from drinking 20-30 ounces of hard liquor a day to 0, and experienced no withdrawal or cravings. I’ve been clean for 2 years now, with not even a near relapse, despite the fact that I have more stresses in my life now than ever…(wife left me, lost my house, then lost my job, all that shit.)
I administered it to a hard core crack addict. After one session she stopped craving crack and experienced no withdrawal symptoms. She used to go into physical withdrawl symptoms after just a few hours of using. I stayed with her for the week and she had no cravings at all. People were coming over to get her high and she calmly declined.
Im assuming you have no firsthand experience with it right?