Does anyone have the answers?

Excellent questions…the right ones.

I think no one cares and that phrase “There isn’t such a thing as a free lunch” expresses very well life: if someone is giving you something it’s because this person wants sth from you.

I am bad at lying and curious how to lie as a master like everyone else does except me.

Everyone is deeply alone even when surrounded by other people. But the others pretend they are not and enjoy life. We don’t do so we ended up here.

The world is immensely sad. Life is a barrel full of difficulties&suffering for 5 seconds of joy but those who are not so intelligent to see it can feel happy. Happiness is for the fools. If you think&understand you do not feel happy or do not for very long.

Cut is the same as eating junk food till become fat&ill, smoking, alcohol, drugs but cutting you do alone bothering no one, spending no money and it gives you huge pleasure&relief so it’s forbidden&considered ugly. But in fact is less damaging than others things where you spend money.

If you dpend money on a thing that can kill you that’s fine.

If you cut you don’t spend so it’s forbidden. You don’t need other people to cut so you get independant to give yourself a lot of pleasure SO it’s forbidden and ugly. Besides all society imposes us to be dependant and spend money.

A big shit the System!