Most of my classes this year are honors, which means that it’s going to be 2 times harder and 2 times the work. I barely made it through the first week of school, and now my mom wants me to go to a Magnet school (a school that I have to be accepted to depending on my grades and an essay that I have to write. I want to get into that school, because #1 its a great school, and #2 most of the people from my school won’t be there(which is great, a new start with new people). But I keep thinking what would happen if I don’t get in, I would be going to my high school, with all the annoying people that I’ve known for the past. I don’t know, I want to go there, but at the same time I don’t want to, I know it’s going to be tough, and I find it useless since I don’t picture myself being alive by the time I graduate high school. But my mom wants me to get in so… I have to at least try.
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If you desire to get in, but also don’t want to, try your best to get in. It may change the way you think about things, and open you up to new opportunities. If it so happens you aren’t accepted, you tried your best, it’s okay.. Outside of high school is a more free world for you. I won’t tell you it’s better, but there’s more freedom to choose your path. Keep going, it’s tough, it will always be tough, but try. And honors classes…. they look good on transcripts. A bit work-heavy, but it will do you good.
Oathkeeper has some really good points. I’d only add that in situations like your I like to think of “what is the worse case scenario?” Once I’ve figured the worst that can happen and duly prepare for it everything else is icing I can lick up.
So prepare for the worse and maybe you will find yoruself licking up life’s icing.