Need help I can’t keep doing this. He’s going to kill me. It’s slowly getting worse the yelling has now turned into shoving. Yesterday we got taco bell and the bottom of the box of tacos broke. He was mad at me it was my fault I should have carried it better. I gave him the tacos that didn’t hit the ground and I dropped them on his lap. He got pissed that I “threw” them at him and he threw one at the back of my head as I walked out. It’s my fault I shouldn’t have tossed them at him. I ran upstairs and locked the bedroom door. I didn’t think about the bathroom. He came running up the stairs and burst threw the bathroom door grabbing me as I tried to run back in the bedroom. He threw me on the bed. I panicked figuring he was gonna hit me. He didn’t just yelled at me. And the first chance I got I locked myself in the office. I needed a minute. Today my face hurts he must have grazed my jaw trying to force me to the bed. He said if I ever threw anything at him again he would fuck his ex in front of me and kick me out of his house. I need to leave but I can’t. I need help but I have no one. Maybe I should just end it all. We have enough pills in the medicine cabinet to help. I want to live but I can’t. Who can I turn to now?
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You definitely need to leave. This is horrendous. File for a divorce, if you’re married to him, and try to find a place to live. If you have any family members or friends, maybe you can live at their place for a while. Or try to find a job, any job, just so that you’ll be able to afford any place to live, because almost any place is better than where you’re now. Turn to family, friends, a mental health professional, support groups for domestic abuse, or even the police. Nothing of this is your fault, you don’t deserve this. He’s a weak and pitiful creature that’s taking his frustrations out on you, that’s unacceptable, and has nothing to do with you.
Ditto to what Sad Potato wrote. Get away from him in any way you can.
Definitely agree with Sadpotato. I was in an abusive relationship for 3 years. There are people and organizations out there that can and will help you, you just need to contact them. They can help you disappear when he’s not there and they can help set you up for recovery. It will be hard and it will hurt and you will feel like a failure at times but you’re not at all and it does get better but you just need to leave there. ?