Getting help?

I have reached out to friends and family. I’ve talked to them about being suicidal. No one has said what I need to hear. I’m always thinking that maybe I should get help, but wondering if I really need it. I guess I don’t know what I need to hear. I know that one of these days, I won’t be able to go on. When I have anxiety and start to worry too much, I imagine my own death by my own hand. This usually calms me down. Most days, everything is fine, but I just can’t ever get out of my head and away from these negative thoughts. I feel hopeless, exhausted, and confused, and I honestly don’t know what’s next for me.