I’m new here. I don’t really know what I’m saying. I just know that I feel like absolute shit. My partner is truly amazing, I love him so so much. I wouldn’t imagine living without him. Without him I wouldn’t be alive. But we both have severe undiagnosed mental issues. I think his are worse than mine, but it may be that it seems his are acknowledged more than mine (in AND out of our relationship). Whenever he feels like shit or has a panic attack etc I blame myself which just adds to all the anger, guilt and depression that I end up taking out on myself. I feel like my feelings are never acknowledged by anyone (except him) and whenever I fully express my feelings to him I make him feel like total shit and it triggers him. I have nobody else to talk to. I felt like shit anyway. I don’t know what to do with myself, I just want to die
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Well I certainly don’t have an answer for everything, but I at least hear what you’re saying, and it’s all right to express your feelings here. Maybe it would help a little if you (or both of you) went to a counsellor and at least did get a diagnosis?
Thanks Lowcard.
I wish it was possible for me to get a diagnosis but the Mental Health Services where I live hate me as I supposedly offended a psychiatrist (by politely saying that she didn’t understand me). My boyfriend may be getting a diagnosis I really don’t know, he’s been trying for a long time, as far as I know hes on medication at least. I do have a counselor thank god, but I cant go with him because everybody seems to want to break us up. Thank you very much though. I hope you’re feeling not to bad