I feel so alone

You are not shit. As in: you are not bad.

You are evidently not happy about the way you look. I understand this, since men primarily judge women on looks. So it becomes hard to live up to and you feel bad.

My advice would be to remember that your looks, your health, your happiness, your relationships, they are all connected.

If a person demeans you because of the way you look, you need to get away from that behaviour. It is important that you do not start believing it, because hating how you look will influence everything else.

But this also offers hope, because it means that you can be more attractive if you are happier, and I am talking subjective happiness as in YOU FEEL happy, not as in you smile for others, or you act happy, or you do things that make others happy, cursing yourself for not being like others, or for being ungrateful, or the like.

And you can be more attractive if you are healthier. And healthier if you are happier. And so on.

So for me, this sort of starts with health and happiness. Not with pleasing men. Not with all sorts of shortcuts to try to look good for other people. But to FEEL GOOD about yourself and for that to seep into the way you look to others.

Take care and huge hug. And sorry for my parody post. It was inspired by the beginning of your post, but is just my lighthearted comment on what I think we all do here.

I want you to live and be happy.