I have seen you pop up in the community in the last few days and I just want to say you are not alone. Everyone on this site knows what its like to hurt. You are not alone.
You keep asking for a reason to live, but life is not that simple. There are things in my life that I love and cherish and things I give no value to. I love my GF and my laptop, I don’t love my clothes, if I lose them I can just get more clothes. I cannot replace my GF. So she gives my life meaning, I fight everyday for her. I live to make her as happy as possible.
I have many other reasons as well, but I hope you see my point. Its personal to me. What matters to me, matters only to me. So I think you may have to do some soul searching.
Why should you live? Why not. what do you love? who do you love? where do you love? every had a pet? Every human life can have meaning. You may have fucked up your whole life up to this point, but its not over until you or your body gives in. You still have time. Maybe days/weeks/years. If you want a reason to live you have to try and find it. You could do some volunteer work with poor or with animals, make a new pen pal, start taking pictures, listen to new types of music to drown out the voices in your head. just some examples, I don’t know what your passions are.
I don’t know you. I wish I had the right words to help you find some reason to fight. Because there is one thing I do know. I was fucked up. I was depressed, I pushed people away and I have been in pain. I almost died. But I am still here. I have a job, I have a loving gf and I have partly mended the relationship bridges I burned so efficiently. I went all the way to the edge, but I clawed my way back. So if I can do it. Anyone can do it.
You are not alone.
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Your story seems lovely. Thank you for this post. ?