I don’t personally know Jerry (how could I?) of course but it broke my heart to see the latest post from his account. It’s heart-breaking.
This song just seemed appropriate- how the rest of us still live in daylight but he isn’t here anymore.
I think I’ll keep a little piece of him in my heart.
He had enough courage to do the deed but the world is missing another person. It’s a tragedy.
So excuse me if my voice is a little broken at times.
The church, a street up from where I live, is an ancient, two-to-three-stories looking building that looks gothic in the orange-yellow light.
This night, after a long seven weeks of feeling disconnected and lonely, I finally felt that giddy connection with another human being. In that church.
So if you’re reading this, know that with the courage to live on, there will be little moments like this, little flashes of adrenaline and dopamine and oxytocin, that will perhaps make you crave more of those while you are still alive.
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Yes I’m very saddened by his passing. I didn’t know him, but it still hurts. I hope he’s in the light of peace.
I like this. Do you write songs? Hugs
I’m in love with your voice and how you sing, very beautiful! You have a great gift 🙂
I’ve reproduced it like 50 times. I love listening to you sing 🙂
This is my last post on here but thank you for the song and we will share it at his wake. We have been trying to come to terms with this. We had no idea he had emails being sent at certain times and to any of you thinking of ending it do your family and loved ones a favor and leave a note.
I am not sure how to disable his account but this is way to depressing and I cry each time I see his laptop knowing he had sent out the notes right before he was gone.
Take care everyone and please think about what you do before you do it. No matter if it is living or dying. I will forever be haunted by the image of him and the way he was found.
At least he is at peace, we hope.
I am really sorry for what you have gone through. I feel so bad that he came here and still ended up killing himself. We should have tried much harder to talk him out of it.
Take care. I hope you can remember the good stuff. That is the only way I have found of dealing with death.
P.S. I don’t think you can disable his account. I have requested mine be disabled before, but nothing happened. I don’t think it is possible in WordPress, which this site is built in.
You could probably delete his posts, but I personally feel like it might be valuable to leave them up, as a sort of memory/warning. None of my business anyway.
Thank you muspelhem, I did find that there is no way to delete his account but you are right in leaving it up might help others.
I do not believe there was anything anyone could have done. He apparently had this in his mind the day he was escorted out of his home. His ex put up a deplorable page in order to get money for the divorce and made him out to be someone I know he is not. We all have marriage troubles and we all have people that make us mad but some of the things she said has our family enraged to the point that my mother almost flew to her and rearrange her attitude.
I believe that put him on the path he took. Hopefully I can keep up with this to help others but it has been incredibly painful.