I took the tablets, it’s night, I had to dissolve or chew most, I dunno if that speeds up the process. It’s night, my parents are asleep, I can see the stars from my window, my cat is sleeping on the bed next to me, I’ve even chained the door, in case, how long will it take? I’m gonna lie down, headphones at ibn I’ll listen to my favourite music. I wonder if my parents will get to work beovr rim found, huh anyways I guess this is me reaching out for one final conversatio
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What did you take?
Just know I love you, and you’re worth it.
Paraceatamolm. Codramol.yd a d some of my heighefever and vit am in d tablet s wah ever near by in my medication and essential draw, I MIng,h.t ,,slIt may. .wrIsts just to e sure, but i don’t wan t., to get if wrong or wake my parents. I think it was enough hopefully, I should be sad it I not. I’ve been crying in secret all my life, no2 on not, why, this si weird
Hey ZombieGirl, listen if you are still around please CALL your parents and/or emergency services. IK it feels like yours is an inescapable situation, but there is always a chance of things getting better…unless you are dead. Please.
Life is worth it. Please get some help.
Please stay with us and talk as long as you can ZombieGirl. I’m right here with you.
I really suggest you throw up and get your parents to take you to a hospital. You can die later using a better method.
I cànt, I’m persistent, I can’t interrupt my parents sleep or anything else, it’s not even the feeling of guilt or being a burden, it’s O c d . I hate messing up routine. A.so I can’t throw up, litterally, that’s why I’ve never eenc successful, at being anorexic or bullemic, it turied but always failed, my body’s always suckle d ta volu tray throwing up or whatever. But I did just try to cut myself but I can’t, I don’t know why I can never do my cuts to deep It’s like I wuss out automatically, I keep gelling myself to do it, but my automatic brain still thinks I have a chance, of I wait for the tablets to kick in, will the pain go, so i ca do it, I don’t want to be saved, I want it to stop I want it to sgop
I think the reason we stop ourselves from cutting to deep or what prevents us at times from pulling the trigger is that even though our brain wants to die our body wants to live.
I know that baby girl. I know you want it to end, but what if it doesn’t? What if you wake up with organ damage? You’ll be worse off than ever before.
Like i said you can still die later, but this is not the way.
Don’t call me that! You don’t know me no one knows me! Even thoguthsp that ‘knows’ me they don’t care, they r liars and so am I. I’m done I’m fi siedhs so can’t do it any more goodbye for fucking evdr
You’re not in your right mind. You’re desperate. There’s no telling if you will actually die when the pills kick in.
Stay a little longer. Not forever. a bit longer. One more day. At the very least unlock your door.
You’re righ.., t that probably wasn’t enough pills, I should u lock my door, to get more, that’ll do pig, ha ha I’m so punny right now
While I don’t have ocd and therefore can’t understand completely, I really beg you to at least call emergency services. Or get your parents.
Plus I don’t think anything will ruin their routine as much as finding you dead [/really badly organ damaged (always a possibility with OD’s)]
It’s not a question of being saved…it’s a question of putting your life in your own hands. I wish I could be more helpful, I really do.
*Please call someone.* if not for yourself, then at least for the people you love, and if not for them, then at least for me…
Damon, paraceatamol tastes shit she you chew it, I’m out of water, I can’t get more so now I’m just gonna rest, but the adrenaline as keepingd me awske. Well I got not hi to lose, I know I’ll update my Facebook like hay fuckers?, but they would ban sweating so, I guess il be timid or something. As fuck I just realised I might shit maself it I die does laying down and pulling your pants tight stop that! Don’t want to be found cause of the smell lo?ss
Oh no! This is terrible :'(
Please get help at once!
Again, please, please get help. Also try and throw up the pills if you can [& overdosing is really not a pretty or clean way to go, that much is true.] If you live, you will regret this; if you die, then it will hurt the people that love you so much more than you can imagine.
No no m sorry, don’t worry, I just rea,I seen all I’ve done is move more stress on you guys, so don’t stress tjisnwas my choice. And who fucking knows, if unlucky lucky me is lucky? I might survive, slightly more tucked than before . You know I’d did research on this, I thought abou t just taking enough to only cause damage and act like I thought it would kill me then I got started, and I had to finish, everything negative just came all at one CD, and I also just realised, if I die, my parents may not bother to look throughout my stuff, so they may never know “the true me’ so thanks for barring witness to Me real, I guess
I don’t think you’re stressing anyone. We’re just concerned about you.
We are distressed because we like you. You can’t change that by telling us not to like you 🙂
Please get help. Please. You are way too good to go like this.
Oh Greg only one like on my Facebook, it’s of someone I barely know from college, told her I’m drunk, now what?
Now stop worrying about likes and start worrying about YOU: your body and your mind and your heart.
Save yourself! Please 🙂 You can do it!
I didn’t mean like I meant message, tell you what, be for I pass out or whatever, you give me one good reason I should live, and I’ll message the girl like nope not ok, should probably call someone so you can save my life and become famous, if I don’t agree I’ll probably just chill or something
The one good reason is you will die eventually anyway. You only ever get one life.
The other one is that lots of us like you and I think one of the reasons you are at where you are now is that you feel like your needs are not being met. I think you people in your corner, rather than to feel alone and throw in the towel.
Hugs
*need people in your corner
Lauren, please, please, please get help ASAP. You deserve better than this.
How long does it take to freaking kick in. How long have we been talking?
We have been talking for a while. But you don’t know what is happening inside your body. You could feel fine and still be in danger.
Will you please get help? Please, I am begging you.
I’m fine don’t worry. I’m chatting to my friend everything fine . Don’t worry. This was an hexperimentioned to get everyone else to find there own purpose. So you guys can encourage yoyeaeldvs with you’re own words of wisdom. So go on our there and live. I’m fines. I have made own purpose. So I’ll talk to you all soon
I don’t entirely trust you on that… you are slurring your words…
We just want you to be happy, honestly.
Please get help :'(
Well, i’m assuming the paracetomal s the most dangerous thing you took. An overdose of that can take 24 hours before the liver begins to fail.
This^^^^ With OD’s you often don’t see the impact on your body until it’s too late to change anything. PLEASE get help. I don’t entirely trust ZombieGirl on this being some sort of elaborate experiment.
Who am I kidding. I can’t lie anymore. I’m getting tired. It doesn’t hurt as much now. I tried to cut my wrists downwards. It stung. But I’m to tired. Every time I move the world’s dizzy. I’m. I to get more tablets and water. Oarnts are asleep. I know it’s already too late. So I can’t be bothered to wake a anyone. Inconvenience them. My “friend” was to bust watching a movie to talk to me. What the point of fighting when you know you just have your self a death curse? I don’t care anymore
It’s not necessarily too late. PLEASE WAKE YOUR PARENTS UP / call someone / write to someone / call 911 or whatever the number of the emergency services is in your country. Please!! You are valuable, and don’t let a “friend” make you think otherwise.
I don’t need it is don’t anticipate hou habit. I wrote WANT it automatically generated to ancient opate
No no no! It is not too late! Wake them up! Wake them up! Even if it is with your last strength!
Come on Lauren! Do the right thing!
Why? Why bother? Why do you guys even care? Hello why did I at some point for others? People die all the time. good bad. There’s a tone of email dying right now. You don’t know M
Me. I be as evil as Hitler. Lying or whatever. Why are you even trying to alk to me?
Because you are a part of this community and you are a human being and you are worth something. Yeah, I don’t think so (that you are as evil as Hitler). Even if you were, I still wouldn’t want you dead.
Please get help now! Don’t delay any longer.
I’m shivering why? Imy not cold is that ormal?
I don’t know, but come on, please get help now! You need your body to work properly to maintain your body temperature.
Let someone look after you.
Come on!
I care about you because you – we – are human. Because you matter, no matter who you are. That’s reason enough. Plus I believe that you can change and that life can change. Please bother! Please act now and wake someone up while you still can! Please!
Like chase and muspel said. We want you to survive. You are a human being. You deserve another chance.
I cab . I have to go off now anyway. My batteries already I’d on my tablet, I’m using phone now. Want to listen to using and look at stars before I zone out. Plus it never been clear sKiespecially here. Always cloud. And no one awake to see it. Guess that’s my lyck
How hard can it be? Call 911 or whatever the emergency number is where you live. Wake up your parents. Whatever. Just save yourself!
It hurts so much to be so powerless. Lauren, I really, really, hope you survive this. If you can still see this, I beg you to tell someone. Please. YOU REALLY MATTTER.
Hey ZG, I find it horrifying that no one has asked you the most important question: what music are you listening to? That can make all the difference. For example if you were listening to something cool like Disturbed’s “Sound of Silence” then I think you should hang on at least until the song is over. But if you’re listening to Pharrell Williams “Happy” I can’t recommend death soon enough.
Oh well, yeah, do what everyone else is saying. I’m not in a position to offer any good advice even if I had any.
Ha. Ha sorry eryvobe I gott go now getting to waffle. Do I’ll just chill. However way this ‘wordout’ it’s lately st it’s courser4 an do there’s nothing you can change donth worry everything Lloyd be fine. Good night to you as see you in the nornig
Man, I hate this. I so want you to get help flushing out those pills so you can be okay 🙁
Why here lives in the uk (or rather south wales)?
Never mind. Turns sleep now
Oh crap. I fell asleep, I was so tired 🙁
Please tell me you are still with us. I do not live in the UK, but not too far away: Denmark.
I really really hope you make it through this. Please let us know, and please get to a hospital ASAP.
Hugs
I’m here way too late to add anything to the conversation, but am still hoping you wake up all right.
I’m OK. I’m alive I’m in hospital. Will update with a post some time this week
Update: http://suicideproject.org/2016/11/update-im-back-gonna-take-a-break-maybe/