I know that going back in time is near impossible and there’s all the quotes about looking forward and forgetting the past, but it’s so hard when the past was so much better.
I don’t know if it’s 2016 that’s getting to me, my depression, or if the world is just sucking. High school sucks, everyone is divorcing, my favorite member of my tv show is leaving without thoughts of coming back or talking to the cast regularly again, I’m doubting my friends, and my family has been worse than ever.
I’m probably just being a teenager and being overdramatic, but I feel like everything is falling apart. My chest feels tight, my eyes burn but no tears are coming out, my head is spinning. The past was so much simpler. Less drama, less fights, less stress. Now, I don’t know what to focus on anymore.
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I know what you mean-I also sometimes think back to the few great times that I had when I was younger and would like the chance to go back and re-live them and maybe undo some mistakes I made.
Of course that’s impossible so the key is to just make the best of today and work towards a better future. This world is not meant for sensitive snowflake types. There is a lot of pain, suffering and conflict and it’s universal-doesn’t matter which country you live in, everyone has problems.
If you’re rich you can avoid most of them-but not all and you also have to worry about people hating you for being wealthy or worse, kidnapping for ransom. Also rich people get depressed as well, have conflicts with each other and so on.
We don’t have a choice but to toughen up so we can deal with anything life throws at us. When I was a kid like you I thought by the time I hit my 30s, I’d be having a great life, with a wife, house, great job etc. None of that happened and in fact some of it I don’t really want-like a job, even a well-paying one is just slavery, stress, hard work and no freedom. So I’m self-employed which I prefer way more.
The best thing to do is get a good education and career and most other things will take care of themselves. Those who don’t make such plans, or party too much-eventually end up suffering the rest of their lives for it-by getting stuck in low-pay, dead-end jobs, marry losers, etc.
People like to discredit teens as being overly emotional and dramatic and while that can be the case, usually it’s the point in life when a person first becomes self aware of the world around them and their existence in it. It’s overwhelming and when you realize how shitty the world is and how you have a lifetime of suffering and slave labor ahead of you, suicide becomes the natural solution but it’s been stigmatized because dead people can’t work or make money for the masters in high places. Oh it’s just a phase, don’t worry we’ll scare it right out of you with threats of locking you in a psych ward or prison and keeping you alive for eternity so your suffering is immeasurable compared to now. So of course that will shut anyone up. You can’t talk about it in the open anymore because they’ve scared the freedom of speech and expression right out of you. People who are suicidal are the only sane people left in this world.