Is anyone in Charlotte or NC or the southern United States?

Sorry that you are hurting. I looked at your previous posts to see what other details you offered about yourself. I am the same age, heading for 30 next year. I live in the midwest. I have had relationships in the past but it’s been about 5 years since the last one and hardly have any regular friends either, so I know that’s not easy. I understand how bad it can feel if you’ve never had a girlfriend, but having had 7 or 8 and the relationships always ending sooner than you hope for doesn’t feel great either. Not that it has to be a contest about which situation hurts more. But you can say nobody has ever given you the chance, whereas having had relationships in the past means people did try me out and actively decided that they’d rather live their future without me. Anyways, the point of my replying to you wasn’t to debate that idea of whether having love and losing it is worse than never having it at all. Either way, it’s lonely and screws up your self-worth.

Not sure what I am here to say, other than just letting you know that you’re not the only one it is happening to. I have even told a few “friends” about how the last 5 years I have spent almost every day completely alone, thinking somebody with a heart would hear that and immediately invite me out to see a movie or hang out for a while, and they still don’t. Nobody cares anymore.

I’d almost say I’m ready to drive to NC just to get out of town for a while, but I’m not sure I can right now. I actually almost came to NC earlier this year for a job interview, but of course chose to run away from the opportunity instead.

I hope things get better and that you can hang on. I feel like I should probably blow my brains out once I hit 30 too if it’s clear that this is how my life is going to be from now on, but foolishly I keep waiting for something good to happen that will help me understand why I had to do all this suffering first.

Maybe there are other sites, meetup etc where you can still try to find someone else who would understand anxiety or depression. It’s probably a long shot looking for someone on here, although you already got one reply from someone who isn’t all that far away.

I don’t know why this happens to some of us. I don’t think other people who have friends and relationships necessarily did anything to earn it. It’s not as simple as saying they did something that we didn’t. Some people are just lucky. I guess some people have to be the ones to be alone, just like for rich people to exist there has to be poor people somewhere else. Some people get 50 friends and some get zero.