My empire of dirt

I’ve got a few people who only reappear when they need something or want the attention/ego boost. Being used is never fun. What’s really sad is when you can see it coming , you can identify the red flags ahead of time, but you choose to interact with the person anyway because it’s either them or nobody to talk to at all.

The most recent one was an ex/friend who popped up on my phone after not talking for almost three years. Of course it was because their marriage had just fallen apart. so I knew they were just using me and that if their relationship was still going strong I never would have heard from them. But I went with it anyway. I flat out told her that we had a history of her only coming back into my life when something went wrong, and she claimed she had tears in her eyes as she read my message and promised that it would be different this time. I told her I didn’t just want to hang out two or three times and then never see each other again like what always happens. Sure enough, in the end, I saw her three or four times, enough for her to complain about her divorce, use me for some entertainment, and haven’t seen her in like two months now. It’s amazing how some people can lie. I told her how bad I’ve been doing the past few years and that it would be really dangerous to hurt my feelings and let me down, and she did it anyway.

Nobody cares about anything but themselves anymore.