Where there is a spark…

I feel a new beginning or positive reset may be coming into my life. I hope that I am right because more than anything I need circumstances to seem less gloomy. Not having pocket money for Christmas is gloomy. Not having any sense of what I should do or who I should be speaking to for help is depressing. I got a call from some cranky sounding guy who is expecting a call back. I know I need to call him but if thats his attitude it’ll be hard for me not to get agitated and tell him I have enough crap to deal with and I don’t need more. Its like talking to a debt collector who doesn’t understand the word “broke”. Some people truly do not care how much a person is suffering. They will still be a jack *ss but I no longer feel guilty when I answer them back with the dialtone in their ear. Its called selective listening. I’m done with my critics so bring on the positive reinforcing applause for everytime I try to just continue on despite all my baggage. Really some people in life settle for being miserable as their normal and then they have miserable jobs. Then the next thing you know they try and pass the crown of misery to you and everyone else they come across… im so done and over toxic people. Its like that Micheal Jackson and Janet song. They make me want to scream.