Yet again I’ve caused a chaotic explosion in my home and in my head, got a little drunk again like I think I’m literally a little drunk I got jealous of my own best friend because I didn’t want my boyfriend thinking she was better what the fuck goes through my head and why am I so angry every time I get pissed up now? Drinking is suppose to be fun isn’t it?, yeah okay then, boyfriend ended up fucking off and going with his mates, I can’t blame him now though I completely understand I’m losing all self control, he’s loyal, understand and he loves me I need to stop pushin the last person I have away from me, my left thigh is covered in cuts and t was only a couple days before that I hurt myself again, There’s still some part of me trying to get out, I know she’s in there otherwise I wouldn’t care so much