I am worthless

Riff Raff 12/30/2016 - 9:10 am

I can relate. I am 44 years of age and have not amounted to anything substantial. I have had jobs.. but they are usually low paying crappy jobs. Currently I do not have a job but I am trying to find one soon. I have social anxiety over my past. I usually cannot keep friends in my life for very long because they usually find out what a loser in life I am and move on.
I also did some embarrasing things years ago… and some of it was caught on video and where ever I go eventually the video surfaces or people talk about it and then the social anxiety comes back and people laugh at me or do not want to be part of my life so I just suffer over and over and over. LIke I have to move to a new place > and maybe have a couple good years there… but eventually people find out about how pathetic I am and then they leave my life.
I do not fit in anywhere in life. I am a straight man…. so I am attracted to women… but I am a wimpy guy… and I do not have anything to offer a woman… meaning I am not successful. I have no home, I have no real money in life. I cannot afford to take a woman out for a good time. So I cannot keep a woman in my life… so I wind up lonley and miserable and I am sick of being a loser in life. I am so pathetic.. I often am even scared to show my face in Public.. because I think people are going to talk trash about me or think I am a loser and they are right I am a loser in life.
I also am at a point where I just dont find enjoyment in much anymore.. so this existence is just suffering for me. I just want to go walk up into the woods and die there. I really was not cut out for life. I just have always had a hard time with life and well.. I wish it would be over for me
I can relate to how you feel

Konig Laconic 12/30/2016 - 9:28 am

Bro, you’ve got to stop worrying about what other people think of you. It’s none of their business what you do with your life and if you just had a little self esteem you wouldn’t feel so bad about your current situation… in the end other people’s thoughts can’t hurt you, they’re just intangible nothings that have no affect on you if you don’t let them. Try to remember that and keep being yourself, and remember “Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”

Good luck bro, hope you feel better about yourself. Maybe take up a hobby or skill in your free time so you don’t feel so shitty all the time?

Konig Laconic 12/30/2016 - 9:47 am

And you’re not worthless. Chin up my lad, chin up.

Do you honestly believe you’re completely worthless? I don’t believe that. And remember, in the long run, we all amount to the same thing anyway… nothing really matters in the end, so why stress out about it?

numba 12/30/2016 - 10:00 am

m sorry you’re feeling like shit :(. I dont often comment on posts so yours must of spoken out to me. Your thinking and writing style sounds like me. I must also be in a good mood to want to help someone. 🙂
I, too, mask my misery with jokes and sarcasm. Nothing i say is ever serious! Sometimes i take it too far though with people who don’t get my sense of humour. They look at me like I’m crazy haha. I think we would get along well.
You must still be young if you’re thinking about college? What would you do if you went to college? – just out of curiosity.
It’s all too easy for your friends to say things like ‘stop feeling sorry for yourself’ etc when they’re not you. – they might mean well but they cant fully understand what it’s like. Ive had people say this to me too – i know they want to help but the things they say are very unhelpful and only reinforce how shit i feel. This isn’t something you’ve asked for so please dont blame yourself.
I dont know what your life has been like.. i imagine it hasnt been smooth sailing until now. You probably wont believe me but i think you’re doing a great job trying to get through.

Just wanted to tell someone that i hate Christmas and new years.

numba 12/30/2016 - 10:03 am

All the best 🙂

alwaysloveyou2.1.15 3/22/2017 - 9:10 am

Thank you it means a lot x

Unluckymale13 12/30/2016 - 11:34 am

I am like you too. I go to uni but my future is pointless because I have a really bad form of autism.. can’t talk to people or form full sentences. I too want to be a woman because I have seen from my experience that women do have more advantages nowadays.. but most people will disagree with this even if they know the real story.

Ah well. Nothing can be done. No one is going to come out of nowhere and rescue us from our misery. All we can do is work 24/7 and pray for some miracle..

alwaysloveyou2.1.15 1/3/2017 - 11:02 am

I am actually female I kind of mean being worth called a grown successful woman than a crazy stupid little girl but I’m trying to build myself up but the little things are bringing me down again over and over I’ve found comfort knowing I’m not entirely alone with feeling this way but I just want to look in the mirror and feel lucky to have the life I have. I should be more grateful but it’s hard when I see no use to my being

SeeSmith 1/3/2017 - 11:13 am

Only you (and whatever diety you like) can determine your self worth.

This whole depression thing would be solved if Big ****** made a pill that made people a tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny bit narcissistic.

Part of my self care when I’m depressed involves lying to myself – repeatedly – that I’m a great person. Say it long enough and it will stick.

alwaysloveyou2.1.15 3/22/2017 - 9:17 am

Thank you everyone unfortunatley for me my self esteem has gotten lower since last time i was on…people constantly remind me how crap i am and i know i am and its okay its what comes with an unloveable package i suppose but trust me the kindness of strangers have helped me huge amounts. You all must be some beautiful people and i hope you all know your all amazing, im still lost completely but ill try xoxox love k

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