(edit ,Never fucking mind the fucking asshole I messed around with a few months ago with just called me up in front of my crush .I want to for he is going to tell him what I did . omg I am Really not allowed to be okay wow. I am so fucked he is gonna hate me why did I do that why . fuck just when I’m happy fuck this shut is why I’m gonna cut . fuck
Well the last two days have been hell on earth for me . I am living with a girl I know since I have been 14 …she has a number of mental illnesses. She has no where to live and she was just realsed from the asylum a few weeks ago . so she staying with for the holidays .
But guys she is fucking crazy and annoying af. She never stops talking and she eats us out of house and home the cars ,lights everything . That we have to zip the the fridge and cubbured shut .
Last week she was so paranoid she almost killed me and I stayed up with her around the clock for three days . because she stopped taking her meds .all while im going threw my own issues and self hatred begging for med from my aunt because my nerves are shot .
Yesterday she spray painted the fridge and oiled the floor which I slippedand fell face first and almost in to the tree.
She just a big annoyance why she is living with us is because she really has no where to go. And we all feel bad because the asylum treats her like a dog in 95% sure they locked her in like a small room and beat her . because she always in the laundry room sleeping or freaking the fuck out .
But whatever the good news is I was helping setting the table up for the holidays and I found out that my ex in-laws gave me back all my drawings and for some reason my family hid it from me .
But I don’t care it made the last two days of a nerveses breakdown worth it . I have something of the old me before marriage and boys and when I was okay .
Never been so happy to see a few book and a blue folder .