idk if anyone remembers me or not but i just wanted to post an update since my last posting.
i made an attempt about a month ago, since then i have been getting help and more therapy, as well as new medicine.
for a few weeks it was helping really well, i started showering regularly, losing weight, going to the gym, trying to get out there. i tried a fake it till you make it approach. but its not working.
i would think that after nearly a month and a half now i would start seeing improvements, but putting my past distractions behind has ended up with me having nothing i really enjoy doing. and im completley miserable.
for a while now in order to keep going to the gym the only thing keeping me going is the thought that if i dont keep going nobody will want to talk to me or be around me, its worked sofar, but i dont know how much more longer i can do it.
i feel like its all just wasted effort, and even if i did meet people i wanted to be friends or formed relationships, i would still be unhappy and miserable. i dont know what to do anymore
thanks for reading.
i also wanted to share a song i have been listening to a lot lately, it feels relatable https://youtu.be/eIfZZ1cQZss
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I’m sorry to hear that. I know how it feels when you do everything you can, but the feelings still aren’t there. Do you know why you don’t enjoy anything?
everything just feels terrible when i do it alone, i want to be around people and laugh and have fun but i feel like its out of my reach, and that its just something i can never have. imean, who would want to be around me anyways, i wouldent want to be around me.
That just clicked with me. I’ve been trying to do it all alone too, and have been unhappy. I honestly believe the answer for both of us is joining a support group. I used to belong to one. I felt accepted and had friends in there. Then I stopped going and fell back into isolation. It makes sense that you are doing all of the right stuff but still feel bad. It sounds like you are lonely. I know I sure am.
some medicines take a while before taking effect, and at times even longer before “showing” effects
same with therapy
and don’t expect it to be like a magic wunder pill that makes everything better like being hit by a sledge hammer of joy happiness rainbows, energy,. motivation and goodness
it’s a “lift”, to help with fighting the rest of the drudgery off, on it’s own, not as effective, so keep “more” things in your treatment, don’t stop 1 thing when you seem to feel better, keep em going
keep at it good for you that you are taking action
it can be an uphill battle for a while, the important thing is sticking it at, “roller coaster” treatments rarely yields positive results
if your therapy is 1n1, I’d might suggest looking in to groups/support meetings, they can add a lot to a person
and don’t be afraid to ask for different meds when you’ve given your current ones a try, there are so stupidly many out there it’s ridiculous and all people react differently to them, sometimes takes a couple of tries to find the meds that has a positive effect
the one important constant is
keep at it
best wishes
the meds are helping some, the neurotin seems to be helping with my anxiety, im not as tired after being in a social situation. but the depressing is always there. ii have passed the 6 week mark i think, and i only feel worse i would think i would feel better. im going to talk to my doctor soon about my wellbutrin, maby there could be an imbalance, cant hurt to ask.
but like you said the medicine cant fix everything. ill still have no friends and feel alone most of the time regardless
group/support meetings, group activities, the gym is often quite the solo affair even with a mate, but doing stuff like team sports or more group based sports/activities can help immensely
Have you tried Anafranil? I have severe ocd, social anxiety and depression. I’ve tried 15-20 psych meds and Anafranil is the only one that worked for all three. Not trying to sell you on it, just wondering.
No I haven’t tried it these are the first antidepressants I have been on
and remember some meds can take 4-8 weeks to take proper effect, depending on dosage, so gotta stick with em for a while,
talk with your doc if in doubt of your currents meds outlook progression time, and once given it a few weeks past that date, then consider talking to the doc about a drug switch
Wellbutrin is one of those meds that can cause serious anxiety as a side effect. And then, neurontin can dampen the anxiety, but will cause depression. Neurontin is an anti-seizure med, prescribed off label for many things (mood stabilization). But it has a mood flattening, zombifying effect. I really curse the day when a lot of us started believing that medications solve problems. The whole chemical imbalance theory. There may be some chemical imbalance in some people, but a medication can cause chemical imbalance where none existed. I’d recommend getting on youtube and listening to some videos by Dr. Peter Breggin. One of the rara psychiatrist who doesn’t prescribe meds, and has studied the dangers for years.
try read the post before posting stuff
no one said “meds only”, thats a shitty treatment that is not advised
secondly there is a reason anti-depressants only have a rough success/effective rate of 40% of people
but that doest NOT mean one should not try them when reaching this point,
one should try any and all available means to get better, despite what some hippie namaste anti ****** propaganda bile some spew
40% chance of a positive effect, be it a major or even only tiny “lift”, is still well beyond good enough to go ahead and attempt, in order to get any type of assistance getting out of the suck
and if you note, the heavy emphasis on therapy other treatment was mentioned several times, exactly because alone, meds has reduced effective/success chance, combined with other treatments/help their success/effective rate increase
if one is at such a low pint all options should be explored to get better, even meds,
and if the first med don’t work no reason to not switch it up and go through them all if no other thing has had an effect so far, because one might just be that person that has a positive effect on some of the shittier drugs, low chance is still some chance,
and depression and such suck so bad any chance is worth taking
I understand both sides of the argument. On one side meds can help and can really lift someone out of a deep hole, that they otherwise couldn’t get out of. On the other side meds definitely can be dangerous, and can have serious side effects and withdrawal symptoms. Some meds can indeed make the problem even worse or create new problems. I totally understand feeling anti ******, and I also understand how some meds have the potential to be helpful. I think the answer is both. If you do try meds be cautious of the side efffects, interaction, ect and stay informed, know what you are taking. I have had some drs who really didn’t know what they were doing, didn’t bother to take the time to understand what meds would be helpful to me and just started flinging out prescriptions. That certainly did more harm than good.
shitty doctors should have their license pulled
they are literally supposed to know their shit, and not just be some ****** shill peddling whatever they might get some type of kickback from
when i had the sense my doctor was a mindless pill prescribing bastard i switched. 4th doc seemed good, weighing the options, checking side effects and not just instantly jumping to the bottom of the barrel
the day I truly knew he was good, was when he was the one suggesting I stop meds all together since none of them seemed to have enough positive effect
others might just have kept pushing the meds, but good or decent doctors luckily still exists yet
Good doctors are damn hard to find. I’ve been through like I want to say 15 psychiatrists and have found 1 good one out of those. There was this one dr is a psych ward I went to. My parents said whatever you don’t put him on risperdal, he has had a severe bad reaction to that med. The idiot put me on risperdal, and then when my parents complained he put “parents uncooperative” in my chart. No joke, forget stripping he medical license, that guy should be shot.
agree completely
and what is it about the docs in wards that always seem to be just a tad extra shitty
guess that’s where the sewage quality graduates seem to flock, m.d. hacks winding up as morticians or shit like that..
you can literally calmly rationally tell them, “this has no effect on me”, administer teh drug anyway, no effect, of, better put him in restraints, then you a bit less calmly keep informing them “this shit dont work”, 3 days later when it’s monday you finally convince them to call the doc doing your treatment, and he says, “yes that shit don’t work on him”, and they go “oh, guess we shouldnt have given him that”… fucking morons.
It depends which kinds od medications. SSRI’s tend to help, but do lose their effectiveness over time. Neurontin is I think an anti-seizure med which has been used as a mood stabilizer, sleep aid and for nerve pain (neuropathy). It’s also used when tapering off the benzodiazepines (Xanax, Klonopin, Ativan, Valium……), which are notorious for creating more problems that they solve. They should not be prescribed for more than 1-2 weeks or used maybe one or twice a year. The FDA guidelines state 2-4 weeks, but that could be too much for some people. If you’ve been on any psych med long term, they all need to be tapered off safely and carefully and very slowly….