I’m sitting on the floor in my room with the lights off and a knife in front of me. I’m trying really hard to convince myself not to use it since its been 8 months but
talk to someone. anyone. whether it be a friend or someone random on the internet talk to someone. get your mind off of things. relapse is not fun, i speak from experience, and if you can try and fight this urge in the long run you might feel better. please take care
sometimes we all feel like were just fuck ups in the world, i mean i feel that too. but youre still here, living and breathing, clearly trying as hard as you can. i know how it feels to think everything is our fault, but just take some deep breaths, try and calm down and distract yourself. 8 months is a long time to go without cutting… trust me when i say you dont want to relapse. i might not know you, but i want to best for you. i want you to put the knife down and push through the shitty feelings. you deserve to not relapse. you deserve the best, just like the rest of us.
The only memory I ever had of my first and last cut was back in 2013 I made cuts on top of the cuts and it was awful. It was deep and my anxiety so so powerful it felt like I was walking nakad in public. The scar is very big and the healed skin is still like purple it’s awful I hope you can reconsider. I wish you best
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If the lights are off, then how will you see anything? Are you planning on getting in a knife fight with your carpet? Not a very wise idea.
Seriously, I hope you can find the strength to resist. Anything in peticular that may have caused you to feel like this?
Do think it over, a knife is not a nice way to go. IF you want to vent/share what got you to your current state feel free to share.
Are you a cutter or wanting to do something more sinister with the knife?
talk to someone. anyone. whether it be a friend or someone random on the internet talk to someone. get your mind off of things. relapse is not fun, i speak from experience, and if you can try and fight this urge in the long run you might feel better. please take care
Everything is my fault
I don’t know how to explain it but I really feel like i deserve this
sometimes we all feel like were just fuck ups in the world, i mean i feel that too. but youre still here, living and breathing, clearly trying as hard as you can. i know how it feels to think everything is our fault, but just take some deep breaths, try and calm down and distract yourself. 8 months is a long time to go without cutting… trust me when i say you dont want to relapse. i might not know you, but i want to best for you. i want you to put the knife down and push through the shitty feelings. you deserve to not relapse. you deserve the best, just like the rest of us.
If everything was your fault, then a SWAT team would be storming your room right now!
The only memory I ever had of my first and last cut was back in 2013 I made cuts on top of the cuts and it was awful. It was deep and my anxiety so so powerful it felt like I was walking nakad in public. The scar is very big and the healed skin is still like purple it’s awful I hope you can reconsider. I wish you best