Welp no poem thing written today, it’s probably fine though I guess I can take a break sometimes…. I’m way too tired to write…. And I guess I technically kind of may have wrote 4 lines today, however I am not certain as I actually dreamed about them…. They showed up in the form of a tattoo on one of my characters…. I guess she wanted that tattoo and was letting me know either way she has that tattoo now, I added it to her description thing so I remember that…. I kind of assume I probably saw it somewhere and that it’s not actually a thing spawned from my mind though, as it’s much different than what I write…. I mostly just wanted to check in I guess…. I just ate 6 eggs, and yes that is all I ate today other than a bag of popcorn…. And I am aware that that’s not enough…. I don’t has any money so I can’t exactly buy food, not that I can realistically drive anywhere anyway, there is about a foot of snow on the ground…. And school was canceled today so I didn’t have to go anywhere…. I hope it cancels tomorrow too, it should as it seems to be snowing pre heavily right now….. I may not go even if it isn’t as the streets that I would drive most of the way there are pre bad….. Grrrrrr I have to leave on Wednesday I have an appointment with my counselor on that day and I was stupid and scheduled a study meeting thing with a classmate for that day (they wanted to, and I assumed it couldn’t hurt me at all) so I had to cancel that today…. I feel stupid for not remembering that…. :/ Maybe tomorrow I may just call my counselor and cancel because the weather is pre bad…. I can cancel 24 hours in advance and avoid a fee, which is nice…. I’m sure he’ll understand there is noway that I could get to there from class in 20 minutes anyway…. due to the roads…. Which is what I would need to do -_-
Rawrgh I feel sad that I didn’t write a thing, but I feel too drained to even attempt right now….. I feel so weak, probably from my lack of food over the past 4 or so days…. There isn’t much left other than rice and eggs in my home right now, and my hands hurt way too much to make me want to wash dishes…. They are just so very dry 🙁 I wish I had food that was viable without much effort :/ I would eat then…. -_-
Welp enough of me whining…. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day ^_^ I’m going to go to bed soon, as I will get maybe 5 hours of sleep before I have to wake up to go to school, or at least to check to see if I go to school :/
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Hi shatterediris..
Please don’t feel sad… Feel mad.. Thats how I’d feel if half a dozen eggs was all I’d had.. And theres no way in hell I’d even attempt to do any kind of domestic chores with dry hands..
I look forward to your next piece…
BTW.. If you have dijon and some kind of neutral oil you could make yrself some creamy mayonaise to go with that rice and eggs.. Pinch of spice.. Jazz that shit up..
Yeah my hands are dry and scale-like and really uncomfortable, they’re bleeding all the time now…. I’m trying to fix them with canola oil. -_-
I don’t has any dijon at all…. which sucks, I like mayonnaise a lot…. I had some Mayonnaise yesterday but I used up what I had left…. I ate those 6 eggs as a salad which I quite like them prepared that way…. I do have some pasta though I think, and an onion guess that means I could make pasta with some eggs…. a bit boring but is food 😀
also I can’t really fry or scramble the eggs (not that I like them that way anyway) as my only pan has some gizzards in it that are about a month old now, and I’m really dreading the idea of uncovering that pan to throw those away…. I may just throw the pan away…. -_-
I threw a pot out the other day. I’m kinda ashamed about that .. It was a lovely old cast iron pot.. I made a goat curry one night and just left it on the stove for a few days with the lid on.. It was really humid.. You can probably guess the rest but I wasn’t in the mood to clean anything that day and I was upset at myself so I tried to pretend it didn’t happen by carrying it out to the dumster one night when it got dark.
Why are your hands bleeding? I get dry hands too.. I know that if I moisturised every night it wouldn’t happen but I either forget or just tell myself I’ll do it tomorrow and that ends up being two weeks..
Yeah happily this isn’t a cast iron pan, it’s a horrible pan that barely functions well and leaves horrible plastic tastes all over the food cooked in it…. My father has been telling me to throw it away for about 3 years now. -_-
My hands are bleeding because they are chapped and dry…. They chap so much that the skin starts to split, then it starts to bleed…. I really should use lotion or something, I’ve been using some canola oil lately and they are getting a bit better -_-
You sound a lot like myself with the dishes, food and dreaming; you wrote one of your ‘characters’ is she a recurring character in your dreams or was it a recurring dream?
PS I am quite experienced in the culinary art of cooking with zilch..LOL Rice and eggs already= egg fried rice, have you any soy/ chilli sauce or a stock cube? If you’ve any peas in the freezer that’s already a nutritious meal. I hope you get a good sleep, also instant noodles are great on a budget and I like a soft boiled egg in mine, add a few herbs or spices and you can pretend its ramen! That’s what I do, tee hee..
Ummmmm she’s been in my dreams recently may be because she’s been more active in a roleplay involving her right now….
Meh egg fried rice seems hard to make, I assume it involves having a frying pan…. which I do not have one clean….. The one I do has is probably the stuff of nightmares by now too….
I kind of do has instant noodles, but I do kind of hate those a little bit…. the soft boiled egg will probably make it better I do have some onion too, that can’t hurt right? Maybe I will actually eat those as you did just remind me that I have about 12 of those hidden away (and I did just check that cupboard and confirmed that they were there…. My father left them in a very strange place where food normally isn’t kept) So I guess thanks for reminding me of those ^_^ I’ll probably eat 4 of those for my meals today, as that just involves needing to wash a fork…. My hands ache and don’t want me to even wash them, but I’m sure I can do a fork really quickly ^_^
the only problem with the onion idea is my cutting board has flour and stuffs all over it still from when I made cookies (last month) (that bowl needs washed too is starting to reek) and I’d need to wash a knife, but I do have two soft boiled eggs in the fridge right now at least (boiled 8 yesterday, and I do soft boiled as that’s how I like them -_-)
at least I will probably get some more food options tomorrow, I am supposed to go to my father’s work tomorrow and he apparently has some food stuffs for me (and a bit of money too) which will help a lot with this ^_^ Maybe I’ll be able to has some meat 😀 I haven’t had meat since last Tuesday (my father had brought me a bit of Chicken then) yay ^_^
Glad I could be of some assistance! Yeah egg fried does involve frying (funny that) but it’s quick, rice needs to be cooked or at least al dente first and I always cook the egg first kinda how Americans ‘scramble’ theirs or omlette otherwise it just goes a strange eggy rice pudding O_o… Glad you’ll get some proper food in you soon anyway. All I ate was yoghurt yesterday because I had been awake for three days and nights and lost my appetite.. Not good! Take care. Xx
that’s not good losing your appetite is bad…. I don’t want to wash my frying pan…. I’ll just have boiled eggs with my rice -_- that’s easier
I wish you weren’t so damn awkward about accepting gifts. You could at least buy yourself some lotion off Amazon to fix your hands… Probably should buy some canned stuff, too.
I guess I’ll heat up the microwave chicken chili I have even though I don’t feel like doing anything… What is with us and being too lazy/apathetic to even eat???
*hates you…. loves chili*
that sounds quite nice Zet zet, I will eat food if it’s easy to get at…. in which case I will eat all of it that’s there -_-
I really enjoy reading your posts and I wish that it snowed here as much as it does to you. The loneliness is more understanding when it’s snowing because I know that everyone is taking shelter like I always do sunny or snow. I was looking forward to your poem what would today be part 8. I hope you eat feeling dizzy is what hungers all about
well I plan to write one tonight…. so don’t worry…. and yeah hasta feel those dizzies so you knows ’bout those hungers ^_^
it doesn’t snow that much, we get a heavy snowfall maybe once every other year it seems…. just this year is pre snowy -_- it melted for like 2 weeks, then snowed again…. there’s like a foot on the ground it sucks 🙁