I have gained 4 or 5 pounds for no reason. WHY?!!! I weigh more than I have for years. I must be eating too much. I knew that I looked more awful than normal. I want to die right now. 24 cuts yesterday, and now I’m going to go cut more. I hate myself!!! Somebody kill me!
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I experienced this recently, I’m 27 and apparently for us women this the age where our metabolism slows and so even if we think we are doing nothing different to before, our body ‘catches up on us so to speak’ and therefore we must work harder at keeping it down. I hope this helps, dont fret though weight goes up and down and round and round it is something we can change. (she says not taking her own advice) Sigh…
Due to my depression and appetite being so decreased to one meal a day most days, (some days I eat nothing) I am down to 131 when I usually weigh between 147~150…. can’t remember the last time I weighed 131.
My sister noticed and asked me how much I weighed. I had just had my physical and told her and she was shocked. I said well what would you expect with only eating once a day and being stressed and depressed? And ya know what she said?
” I need to get some stress in my life then.” Hahaha notice how she didn’t say she needed to get depressed…. need to get stress….she can have some of mine! God knows I have plenty to go round!
The weight is not your problem. I’ll use myself as an example, I used to be a skinny kid, then in my 20s I got very fit and muscular but because I used to body-build, I ate a lot. However my university grades were falling due to my gym time so I stopped working out in order to graduate. Unfortunately I still kept eating the same amount of calories as before and gained weight-I then cut back after, but the weight remained.
My life was always very busy and stressful, trying to get a career together and so forth so I never had much time to work out regularly, I’d start and stop and that didn’t help at all. I’m still out of shape but I plan to get fit again (hopefully this year), but I have other more serious priorities than my weight.
And that’s the point I was trying to make for you. You’re stressing out over a few pounds, but I can tell from your post there are far more serious issues going on in your life. If your needs are being met, you have a job/career and absolutely no other issues to worry about, then you can come back to fixing your body.
Getting in shape is not complicated. You have to expend more energy than you take in. It’s simply a matter of controlling your diet and getting a ton of exercise. I used to do 3-4 hour workouts daily (resting on weekends), playing sports, running and weight-training. A friend of mine only dedicates 1 hour a day and he’s very well built but his workouts are very intense-few mortals would be able to keep up with him.
In short your weight is not the problem-it never was. Take care of all the other issues going on in your life first. Unless you have some genetic issue that prevents you from losing weight, then you’re normal like the rest of us which means when you are ready to get fit, then it’ll happen so long as you’re dedicated, disciplined and create a routine that will help you reach your goal.
See your doctor or dietician, also trainers at the gym can give you an appropriate workout regiment. And don’t expect over-night results. This will take a minimum of 6 months to a year, perhaps even longer if you have a lot of weight to lose, but it’ll happen.
One other quick point-when you’re working out, take the scale with a grain of salt. As you exercise you’ll lose fat, but you’ll gain muscle mass, muscle is heavier. So on the scale it’ll look like you didn’t lose any weight, but in fact the body composition of your fat to muscle is changing.
Also I’d suggest to stop cutting, it’s counterproductive, find another outlet for your stress. Don’t give in to your impulses or whatever is bothering you in your life, take control-conquer your demons. Think of it as just another problem in your life to solve.
I would one hundred percent throw out the scales all together they are useless anyway unless you can work out your muscle mass /body fat ratio. Scales consumed me. Concentrate on eating healthier but not to the extreme it makes you miserable and exercise regularly. My advice? Start off slow dont do too much but do it regularly then build it up and push yourself further as you go. I agree, this will not make you happy but it will help and it’s something productive to focus on. I wish you the best.
Scales give you a rough yardstick, so it’s not too bad at tracking progress. But if she’s really keen on it, she can get her BMI checked regularly at her gym or through her doctor and that’ll let her know how much fat she’s losing over time.
But I do agree with you that she shouldn’t place much importance on the scale and just focus on eating healthy and gradually increasing the intensity of her workouts and then she’ll see results.
I do eat healthy. I sometimes have dessert, but I almost never eat really unhealthy. I do exercise regularly. I just can’t lose weight. Do you think maybe it was water weight because I had A LOT of water that day?
Never mind. I weighed myself just now and I’m still over my normal weight-less than the last time I weighed myself, but still over normal for some reason. Great.