I need to scream, to hit, to cry, but I can’t all I can do is lay here tense and unmoving as I think about how much of a useless waste of space I am I don’t know what to do Ive stopped eating most days I just need to feel something i dont feel alive I feel dead already. If I could let it show I’d just be hitting myself screaming, or crying, but I can’t I’m trapped in my own body it won’t let me feel anything. I just want to feel something that isn’t emptiness or racing thoughts
I just feel so empty
There’s nothing left
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I can relate. It’s a horrible ‘feeling’. Although the other night I did lash out and hit stuff/take it all out on my own body.
Sorry you know this feeling too…did it help? Taking it out on yourself?
Not really. I did it in front of people. I lost control of my self while drunk. During it I felt as if I was watching my body act out from somewhere further back. I felt horrible guilt after I sobered up because I scared/upset people who care about my well-being (even though they shouldn’t).
I know if I get drunk I’m likely to act out like that I have in the past and yep the guilt stays for affecting others. I wish it was easier to cut ties to people without hurting them
Yeah. Drinking and me don’t mix well at all, yet I still often feel the urge to do it In hopes that it will make me feel good for a bit. It only makes matters worse for me it seems.
Sorry you’re feeling low.
I smoke pot now instead it does me better than drink, helps me sleep. thank you, maybe I’ll get better soon
I used to smoke a lot, I can’t do it anymore. It causes me to feel even more hollow and detached from myself. Sometimes it even triggers panic attacks for me. It’s definitely not for everyone, but for some it helps.
I’ve been wondering how long I can really keep on with it it helps less and less increasingly so, hopefully I won’t need to give up for a while
Stop planning so many things at the same time.. Carry one calendar and make sure everything in your life doesn’t interfere with each other..
Be realistic about it too.. Don’t try to squeeze every hour in.
I’m not planning my schedule is depressingly bare…