So I’ve been served with an eviction notice, my debt relief order has not gone through yet and I’m due to pay bailiffs this Fri for failure to pay council tax. This is all due to the financial state my ex left me in and since then I have been struggling to clear up his mess and keep my head above the water. I’m fast running out of time. I’m cornered. The walls are closing in. I’ve nowhere to go.. Except out. Its a shame really because I was starting to feel that I did want to find a way to carry on and sort myself out if I could. Live my life for me. Well now I have no choice. Luckily I have a few days and a little bit of money to prepare my exit. I hate myself. My mum will be heart broken and my brothers will be gutted. I really hope I dont fuck up their lives. I see no other way. I need to find an efficient way out and fast. I’m gutted. I tried. I failed. I’m sorry.
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🙁 oh how I wish you lived near me I would offer up a place to stay.
Thanks.To be honest if I had the means I would up and leave and travel with you 🙁 Thelma and Louise..
That would be so amazing think of all the trouble we could cause muahahaha
Yeah, it would be awesome ?
Oops that was meant to be a <3!
Are you from the UK?
Yeah, why?
Ni? I’m just thinking I might be able to help
Thanks but how?
I don’t have any sage advice for you, except to tell you that I know (almost) exactly what you’re going through, because I was evicted from my apartment in December.
I won’t bullshit you by telling you that ending your life won’t solve your problem; coz it will.
But, can you not find a couch somewhere to crash on, till you get something more permanent sorted out ? A friend who cares ? A friend who “owes” you ? A cheap airbnb if nothing else ?
I have two months to get sorted.. I’m hoping that going to the council with my eviction notice, docs notes and my sob story they will help me out but this really is end of line for me. I’m tired of fighting and struggling in this life. When I look back I realise I never really stood much chance. If I do need to crash somewhere I think I can but I’m useless at asking for help. I hate the feeling of being a burden. It just stirs up feelings I try so hard to bury. I’m pathetic.. We will see what tomorrow brings… Massive kick in the teeth because I was starting to think about going back to college so I can do a fine art degree. I don’t see how I am ever going to manage that. I really don’t wanna end up homeless or in some hostel with addicts.. That really would spell the end for me because of my curiosity.. And If I feel it’s the end any way I will do everything I can to OD but if I fail.. I may end up an addict myself..
Oh my gosh. I’m so sorry I really want you to get it worked out. 2 months is a decent amount of time so I think you’d be able to figure out something. Try to spend time thinking about what you could do, I’ve been dog sitting and it’s made me money pretty quickly. I just feel terrible you are dealing with it all.
Well welcome to my life I barley made it this week past due upon everything and nothing works. I hope you find a way out out this