Only you

You were the only person I didn’t hesitate to trust, to love and to let in. It felt natural almost like breathing I didn’t even think about it. It has been a hard life for me and for years I felt sorry for myself. Why me? I realized that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. So I suffered not because I didn’t deserve happiness but because I wasn’t ready. I realized that I was the only one that could save myself, I had to really want it. Truth be told I didn’t I wanted to disappear more than anything, I craved to stop living. It is easier to give up to give in to the dark feelings than to try and fix things and maintain happiness.