I told my story before but it’s been a week and I am still here. I am a chronic pain sufferer who has been married 27 years. My wife has just admitted to an affair and feelings for this person. It is mainly because I lost everything, my company, our lifestyle etc etc year ago and I have never recovered due to several spinal surgeries. The ache in my heart is so overwhelming, I continue to push her away due to my depression. I cannot live without her, both emotionally and financially. I dont want to miss my sons wedding in October, grandchildren and growing old with her but there is no way I can stay married while she dates someone else(That is what she wants). The end result is still the same. I have never used illegal drugs( just legal ones from pain drs that are just as bad) but if I do this, using heroin, how much is enough that I go to sleep and not wake up? I don’t want to end upin a hospital. I know where I can get it but read street dosages vary and purity is low so can someone tell me, how much do I inject. I have never used needles since I hate them so my first act of getting over a fear of needles will to end my life. Please help me. I want her to hurt as much as she hurt me.
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Sorry, it’s against the rules to talk about methods. Like I’ve said on your previous post, trying to hurt others through suicide is never a good idea. Furthermore, you’ll be doing far more damage to your son than your wife.
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Sorry, I typed a long-ish response, but it’s not posting here. So, I’m going to try pasting it in multiple pieces. Bear with me.
Part 1:
“My wife has just admitted to an affair and feelings for this person. It is mainly because I lost everything, my company, our lifestyle etc etc year ago and I have never recovered due to several spinal surgeries.”
If the above 2 sentences are an accurate characterization of what happened with your wife, I hope you’ll pardon my bluntness.
Part 3:
Which brings me to the most important point – YOU didn’t lose anyone. You never had her to begin with. Your money had her … you had an illusion. I don’t mean this as a criticism, only as a fact.
As I said, please excuse my bluntness. Or, there is more to the story I’m not seeing, with the limited information I have.
Part 2a:
The only “feelings” your wife ever had were not for you, apparently. The surge of feel-good electrical activity in her brain that you mistook as love for you was only ever proportional to the length of the numbers in your monthly statements, provided that the zeros were at the end of the numbers, not at the beginning.
2b: (tried about 10 times to post this)
When her new boyfriend loses his wealth, she will have to find a new source of “love”.
Why the obsession with overdosing on H to exit??? You obviously know nothing about it so maybe you should think of something else? Whatever…
Anyways, as for your ***** wife, she doesn’t have a clue, not the slightest idea of what love is by the sounds of it. Sorry you ended up with such a reptile for a wife. Has been the downfall for many a man. And vice versa of course.
Revenge suicide won’t work. If someone doesn’t care when you’re alive, they won’t care after you’re gone. All you will do is hurt your children. I understand a person wanting to go due to financial problems and chronic pain, and support a person’s right to do so. However, you need to make sure it is the right decision and not purely an emotional response.
As for me+h0ds, we cannot discuss them. When a person is ready to go, they are ready to do the research necessary. Don’t rely on forums.
“When a person is ready to go, they are ready to do the research necessary.”
That is so true ! I find it hard to believe that anyone who half-asses it is serious about going. Something this important/serious warrants a hefty amount of research.
I couldn’t have done the research that I did if I had been feeling too emotional. It took making the decision in a calm state of mind for me to be able to focus well enough to gather the information I needed.
Yup, that’s true too. Emotions constrict vision.
“Revenge suicide won’t work. If someone doesn’t care when you’re alive, they won’t care after you’re gone.”
Sadly, that is too true.
Yep.
” I continue to push her away due to my depression.”
Wait- why is everyone blaming the woman? Sure, she shouldn’t be cheating, but if you push her away, then it’s only logical she runs toward someone else. It takes two for a relationship to work. Not trying to be mean but it sounds like you both need to talk, work it out and both put in the effort.
Is the marriage salvageable? If so, work it out. If not, then the only recourse is divorce, and try to be somewhat amicable at that, since a bitter divorce won’t do anything but make life worse for everyone involved.
Also, to kill yourself just to get back at her- that’s rather dumb and selfish if you’ve got a kid, isn’t it?
Good point here. Has your wife shown any indication that she might be willing to work things out?
“Wait- why is everyone blaming the woman? Sure, she shouldn’t be cheating, but if you push her away, then it’s only logical she runs toward someone else. It takes two for a relationship to work. Not trying to be mean but it sounds like you both need to talk, work it out and both put in the effort. ”
Yeah, I agree. That’s why I prefaced my post with “I’m possibly working with limited information or a characterization that may not be totally accurate.” Coz there’s 2 sides to every story.
I’m not a misogynist by any means (quite the opposite). It just sounded like she ran away to greener grasses at the first signs of trouble. I probably made it sound too black and white. But, you’d be surprised how well that describes a lot of relationships in a purely materialistic society.
It’s the same way for both men and women. Lots of men “run to greener pastures” when a woman gets old or isn’t pretty anymore, or finds a more attractive woman. These days it isn’t just a woman who doesn’t want a man if he’s not making enough money- I know lots of men who won’t be with women who don’t make “enough.” Such is the shitty world full of shitty people we’re in. But I hate all people so eh.
“It’s the same way for both men and women. Lots of men “run to greener pastures” when a woman gets old or isn’t pretty anymore, or finds a more attractive woman.”
Absolutely wholeheartedly agreed ! In the place where I live, stories like what you described are the bread and butter of news reporters.
Great, now I’m hungry for bread and butter.
ha, i just had bread and (faux) butter earlier.
That said, cheating is NEVER ok, in my book. If you want someone else, leave (and make it clear) the person you’re with now. You owe them that simple courtesy.
Fuck whoever and whatever you want, just make your intentions clear to your current partner, and take the appropriate actions (divorce, whatever) BEFORE you do so.
That said, cheating is NEVER ok, in my book. If you want someone else, leave (and make it clear) the person you’re with now. You owe them that simple courtesy.
Fuck whoever and whatever you want, just make your intentions clear to your current par+n3r, and take the appropriate actions (divorce, whatever) BEFORE you do so.
“Lots of men “run to greener pastures” when a woman gets old or isn’t pretty anymore, or finds a more attractive woman.”
This is tangential, but …
Are y’all familiar with the case of Elizabeth “Betty” Broderick, who supported her husband through law/medical school … he later became a dentist and started fornicating with his young secretary. They tormented Betty and she shot them both in their bed … ring any bells ???
Anyway, I wrote a letter to Betty in her SoCal prison, and she responded !!! I told her that I felt bad for what had happened to her. She said something like “It is letters like yours that give me the strength to go on each day.”
Just trivia 🙂
Wait- how does one find someone in prison? You just find what prison they’re in and just write the address and name?
It’s not that hard to find a high profile prisoner. Betty Broderick is *(in)famous*. Her case was widely publicized and numerous documentaries and even a movie have been made about her story.
I suppose it would be hard to find your average Jane Doe, but the CA penal system knows Betty Broderick for sure.
I forgot to answer your question 😀 I simply found it on Wikipedia, I think 😛
“She is incarcerated at …. (name of prison)”
and then I Googled the name of the prison to find the mailing address.
Muy facil.
Trying to watch this youtube video / documentary. 15min in and every single fucking person they’ve interviewed is DAN’s friend, not a single interview of anyone speaking for Betty. How fucking biased is that? It makes MY blood boil, when things that are “news” or “documentaries” or “biographies” are supposed to be unbiased and about facts, but these things tell us to take as truths are never that. Indeed, I am in a pissy mood (and it continues to get worse, ugh) but goddamn, the fact that they’re ONLY interviewing the shitheads’ friends who are obviously going to support him and not Betty, is making my blood boil.
youtube. com/watch?v=bi75aq2xmNs
I’d want to shoot a guy like that too.
Yes, exactly ! Totally biased, because people cannot see beyond the conditioning of “murder is evil’ and “murderers are evil” ! It really is just that simple. People don’t want to dig into the story and really understand the dynamics of the relationships.
Anyway, I’m on Betty’s side, 100%, though I would NEVER physically harm another human being. I feel bad that her final actions made her the bad guy even though most of it leading up to that point would have revealed Dan as the bad guy.
I mean, they sent her anti-aging cream for Christ’s sake … after she finished putting him through law/medical school while raising 3 or 4 kids on her own !!! The man who once said, “I do” to her. What a world !
You know what she should’ve done? Shot him in the dick.
Yup, a nutcracker … kill 3 birds with one stone 😉
3 birds?
A shaft and two ball bearings 😉
It’s from that joke – “Why can men run faster than women ?”
Life is not fair. But what defines us is how we play the hand we’re dealt, and that has a lot to do with how we see the world and ourselves.
You have been very unfortunate in that you have a spinal injury, trouble working, and your wife wants to see other men.
But what defines you is how you deal with it. If your response is pushing away your wife and OD’ing on heroin, okay, own it.
Another route would be to start off looking at what you still have to live for. You’re still alive. That’s one thing. As far as anyone knows, we only live once. You have a wife who’s apparently willing to stay married, even support you, on the condition that she gets to “play around”. Dude not all women would do that. Some would dump you by the kerb. You may (Idk, but I would strongly advise you to read a book called Convict Conditioning) be able to do something about your spine. You have a son. There may be jobs you can still do, ways you can still make a living.
Whatever you choose, good luck.
if u can. email me before u do this.
scott dot james dot harvey at g mail dot come
i been using heroin for a long time btw.