The gun is here, I celebrated yesterday a bit
But idk… I want to stay a bit longer, maybe until I finish what I’m building… or until I cannot hide I’m skipping classes
But I’m so happy, my way out is here
And I’ll be able to rest forever
I told her I loved her and I kept my promise: I never checked the answer.
I hope I finish the story I’m writing, but I think I won’t be able, but I’ll do my best.
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kamidaka, I read your other posts pertaining to your love interest. May I ask why you haven’t considered viewing her response? Don’t you want a chance at actually BEING with this woman? What is she said she cared for you as well?? Wouldn’t that give you a reason to not kill yourself? You could have a serious future with this woman. Why not read the message? In fact, I IMPLORE you to read her message. I IMPLORE you. What have you got to lose. Don’t be a coward.
Hah, you’re right, I’m really a coward.
But her answer (which I assume is a no) would hurt me more than never knowing.
I would have really loved to make a life with her, to be by her side, fight in this so-called life together, make her feel loved. But I’m so insignificant in her life.
I’m sorry, I can’t. I promised myself I wouldn’t read it, I’m not that strong